Rejected Color

I found this on Blondage's blog. This is what rejected color I am.

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

One Year

I had intended to post something yesterday since it was my one year blogiversary. I got lazy though and surfed HNT's!

It doesn't seem like it has been a year since I started writing in this. I have met some amzing people who have been very supportive and helpful. I am grateful to them. I have seen pictures on HNT that are very emotionally evoking, and others that are down right hot! I have also read stories that are almost identical to mine.

The one thing about the circle of friends that I have acquired on blogger, we are all dealing with our own demons and we try to help each other.

If I could I would give a dozen roses to each and everyone of you. I hope you all have a Merry Christmas or a Happy Hannukah, or the any others that are celebrated that I don't know about.

Hold your snookie close and tell them you love them. Make a nice day.



P.S. Jessica, how are my paragraphs? I did them just for you! :)

Unofficially HNT. Since it got cancelled!

How many HNT's have I done already? I have no idea. I need to go find them and start numbering them. So I was trying to decide if I wanted to post this one or not. It's not full frontal at least. Should I post something else I kept asking myself. I had a long discussion with myself about whether or not I had the cajones to post this. I still don't know if it is a good idea or not, but I am doing it.



Why am I doing this you ask? Well click on the lady in lingerie beneath the weather pixie and see for yourself what the main man Osbasso says about it. Then get some liquid courage if needed and start posting!

Thoughts

I was reading Tish's blog a few minutes ago and it made me think. She talked about New Years and that she wouldn't be having someone to kiss at midnight yet again. I realized that I won't have anyone to kiss then either. After having someone with me for 13 years and now nothing. Maybe I can find a woman of easy virtue in FWB since that is where I will be next week. I should look up Christy and Kevin and see what their plans are. My in-laws probably have everything planned out for my daughter already so getting someone to watch her shouldn't be much of a problem. I guess I will see. Make a nice day.

Tuesday

Not much happening here the past couple of days. My wife brought my daughter over last night so that she could go do some Christmas shopping for her. She said she would be back by 8 pm. Not a problem, my daughter and I would just hang out. She ended up sitting on my lap as we went through one of those sites that removes people from the movie and you have to name what movie the picture came from. We didn't do too well on it though. I got her in the tub and left her there for a little while. About 7:45 I got her out so that she would be ready to leave when my wife got there. Right about then I got a phone call from her. She wouldn't be able to make it by 8 because she was having problems finding stuff. Hmmm, I wonder why. At almost 9 I was trying to decide if I wanted to put her to bed until my wife got there or not. At that time my wife showed up. And wanted to talk to me about what she had bought and what needed to be bought still. Whee. I still love her even after all the pain she has caused me, and I don't see us ever getting back together. At least not without a shitload of therapy, and a hot redhead or two for me! I just wish I had it in my heart to get a mean lawyer and file for divorce and custody of my daughter and force her to pay child support, even though she has no job. Maybe then I would feel like it was ok to actually start dating. Make a nice day.

Baby Mama Drama II

This morning I called my wife about 1030 and told her to be ready to go at 1100 cause we were going shopping. Actually I told this to her voicemail cause she didn't answer. At 1055 she called back and said she didn't want to go, etc ,etc. I asked her why, and she just told me that she didn't feel like going. I told her that wasn't good enough. After a few more minutes I relented and told her to be ready to go to dinner later on. Then got off the phone. I took my daughter to the mall and went shopping for Christmas. I am going to hate my mailman when the credit card bill comes. My daughter has no concept of money at all. We got home around 2 and started wrapping presents. My wife called about 2:15 and asked if she could come over. I told her that of course she could how long till she would be here. 15 minutes. So we finish wrapping everything and sit down and watch tv. My wife makes it here at 3:30. Wow, she didn't say 15 minutes of football time! First thing she did was eat a slice of Pumpkin Pie. I did mention previously that my pie turned out very good right? :) So after that she sat and watched tv with us for 30 minutes or so. Then she asked if she could use my bathroom. I assumed that she meant she wanted to talk to me in private, so I gave her a few minutes then went back to my bedroom and asked her what was up. She looked at me and started crying. I can't stand to see her cry. I know she has put me through alot of pain, but I do still love her. A great deal. So when she started crying I shut the door and held her and let her cry. She finally slowed down enough and I got her to sit down and talk to me. She repeated what she had said last night about making bad decisions in her life. I kept my mouth shut and waited, finally she started talking and told me that she had indeed been seeing someone else and he had been giving her money for food and bills. This hurt me, but deep down I already knew it. The reason she hadn't gotten a job was because he didn't want her to work. Lovely, another man telling my wife what to do. It's a good thing I don't know who it is, because I have two handguns and a shitload of ammunition! And I do know how to use them. As she kept talking she basically told me that he was seeing other people besides her. Karma can be such a bitch can't it? Part of me wanted to jump for joy and say I told you so!! but the other part of me wanted to hold her and tell her I was sorry. The second part won. I told her I was sorry this happened to her because I knew how it felt. She caught what I said and apologized for all the pain and suffering she caused me. I asked her how she found out he was seeing someone else, but again all she would say was that it wasn't important. She said she didn't want to see him anymore, but she needed him to help her financially at least until she got a job and started working. I told her that I would make sure she would never go hungry, and I would help her if I could. I told her she could come home if she wanted too. SHe just looked me in the eye and started crying and said she couldn't. I told her the only thing stopping her from coming home is herself. There was more along those lines and I asked her if she was going to eat dinner with us, but declined saying she wasn't able to hold it together long enough to make it through dinner. I tried to get her to promise she would eat dinner with us on Sunday, but she wouldn't commit to it. She was having a hard time not crying. When she was finally dry eyed enough she took her leave and gave our daughter a hug and a kiss and drove off. My daughter and nephew and I went to dinner at the "good" chinese buffet that my daughter likes and had a good time. There was a lady and her teenage daughter at the table next to us and I caught a bit of their conversation of put it in your mouth and swallow. WTF?! Hell yeah Mom!! :) Oh wait she was talking about food. OK so she told her to swallow it before she would tell her what it was. I didn't hear what it was but the daughter got up and ran to the bathroom! Hahaha! My curiosity got the better of me so I asked the mom (she was a MILF btw) what was up with her daughter. She told me the conversation and then told me that it was a Frog Leg that her daughter had eaten! I thought that was hilarious!! So we laughed a minute then my daughter and nephew came back from the buffet. I related the conversation to him and he said, Where's the Frog Legs? and went to find them. After that it was just the nightly routine. I tried to call my wife and find out if she was ok, but all I got was voicemail. So I will go to bed tonight and wonder if she is ok or not. I have my suspicions of how she knows he was seeing other people, but I don't want to voice them now. I always think the worst. Make a nice day.

Baby Mama Drama

Well another post in the life sucks arena. Had a pretty good day today, got my daughter out of school for a Christmas lunch at work. She has been dying to go to one ever since we got here. Afterwards we came home around 1230. She watched some tv and played board games with the nephew. Around 3 her mama came to get her. She was only 30 minutes late. My wife then ate a piece of the Pumpkin Pie that I made yesterday and watched our daughters school thing that I videotaped yesterday. She was too busy doing something to attend. After that was over, they left. It was around 4. I kissed my daughter and hugged her before she left. I finally ate some dinner and about 7:15 the doorbell rings. It is my wife and my daughter. Surprise. I was actually on the phone with her sister and when my wife came in she asked to talk to me. I handed the phone to my daughter and followed my wife to the bedroom. She asked me if I could watch our daughter tonight, because she was having some drama in her life and didn't want our daughter involved. Of course I said I would take our daughter, that wasn't a problem. I looked her in the eye and asked her what was wrong. She started crying and said that she couldn't stop making bad decisions. I asked if she was in danger or needed somewhere to go, but she said she wasn't in danger. She let me hold her for about 10 minutes while she cried. I told her that if she needed somewhere to go, or someone to talk to she knew where to find me. She left a little after that. I am worried about her. The one thing that she kept saying was that she kept making bad decisions. The way she was talking made me think that she may be planning on taking too many sleeping pills before she goes to bed tonight. I don't think she would, but evidently I don't know her as well as I thought I did. So later on before my daughter went to bed I had her call her mama to tell her goodnight. She got voicemail. About 8:55 my wife called back and talked to our daughter to tell her goodnight, then she wanted to talk to me. Unusual. So she talked to me, and sounded like she had been crying some more. I again told her that if she wanted to talk to me or to someone that she knew where I was. I know I shouldn't still love her after the shit she has put me through, but I do still love her very much. Enough to forgive her. I asked her to meet us for breakfast in the morning but she declined and said she wanted to sleep in for a change. I guess I will call her in the morning and see if she changes her mind. Sorry about rambling on, but I needed to get this one off my chest and out of my head before I let it get to me. Tell your snookie that you love them and give them a kiss that lets them know that it is true. Make a nice day.

HNT

Today for HNT I was thinking about posting my derriere, but just can't quite work up the courage to do that. Instead you get two pictures! The first one is me showing some hand again rubbing the belly of my live in pussy. I mean kitty! Yeah. ok.

The second one is her posing for the centerfold of the new monthly publication "Tomcat" She's good isn't she folks? Hehehe. If you want to join in the fun of HNT just click on the pretty lady in lingerie over on the right side and visit Osbasso. Make a nice day!

Today

Well so far today I haven't needed to tell anyone to fuck off. I have been good. Promise. At lunch I went to Panera Bread Company with my Capt. He drives a bright yellow 2004 Corvette. Nice. Lots of power, but very low to the ground. That and they are cop magnets! Lunch was ok. I've had better sandwiches. Other than that it appears as though this will be a slow day. Thats the way I like it!

Tacogirl has restarted her blog as well, so go give her a shout and welcome her back.

Make a nice day!

Time to Vent

Well I have been a good boy so far today. I came very close to telling more than a few people to fuck off. I didn't though. I damn sure wanted to. I'll tell them here. FUCK OFF!!!! Gutless fucking pukes! Grow a set for once in your damn life!

I feel better now. I guess I should do that more often. At least if I do it here I won't spend so much time on the commanders carpet. You can go on back to your life now.

Make a nice day.

Stole this!

Hehehe. I stole this from Wild Visions, another incredibly hot redhead!

Five Kinda Weird Habits

Jessica tagged me…

1. I wake up before my alarm clock almost every morning.
2. I like looking at pictures of naked women, but feel that strip clubs are demeaning.
3. I can't stand a messy kitchen so I clean it almost constantly, but could care less about the rest of the house.
4. I love roses. I am strictly heterosexual male, but I love they way they look and smell.
5. I have to have background noise on. Whether it is the tv or a radio I have to have sound on.

What are five of your sorta weird habits?

You're it Blondie, Christy, and Tish at The Kat House. Now I just have to figure out how to get all 3 of them together and naked at the same time! I would tag Tacogirl as well, but she has deleted her blog. I hope she continues to stop by and comment, Lord knows I need a hot redhead who only wears thongs to leave comments on my blog!!

HNT

Hey folks, sorry I haven't posted a whole lot recently. All I can say is, sometimes work happens. I am posting my back today for HNT. You can just see the bottom of my tattoo on my back. Who can figure out what it is?

Now if you don't know what HNT is, you need to go visit Osbasso. Click on the pretty pink lady in lingerie on the right side of the page to get there. Make a nice day.

Crap

I haven't been able to get to blogger from work lately so it is putting a big crimp in my blogging! I know I have put off blogging some things because I just can't seem to get them situated in my head well enough to write them coherently. I'm not ignoring my blog, just having some problems. Yes I know I am fucked up. I know that the one woman in this world that I truly love, no longer loves me. That tears me up. Why? Because if I had paid attention to the little things I would not have lost her. Then again, if I changed myself to be what she thought she wanted me to be, would she again decide that she didn't want me? I think I need a shrink. I know I need to get the divorce finalized, but then how will she survive? Why do I even care what happens to her? How will it affect my daughter? How will it affect me? How do I go on and make something of myself? I have 3 years until I can retire from the military, then I have to get another job. Do I stay where she is if I don't get my daughter? I actually like the area that I am stationed at right now. The Space Coast of Florida is very nice and has some interesting things to do. You just have to be able to get a job that can pay you enough to live here. The old people from up north have driven the cost of living way up! Since this was a post I started the other day I suppose I need to go ahead and post it. Kiss your special someone and tell them you love them. Remember that you can choose to have a nice day or to make a nice day. I choose to try to Make a nice day!

Funky

Blogger has been funky for a couple of days for me, so I don't know if I can even get this posted but I am giving it a shot.

Your Fortune Is

Never have sex with a stranger unless you are stranger than them.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

Saturday

Well so far today has been pretty nice. My friend who I converse with has put out some pretty good hints on her blog. I had such a bad headache last night that when I went to bed I took two Tylenol PM. SHe called me shortly after that and I was crap for conversation. I think I almost fell asleep on her. I know I didn't wake up until 8 am which is very unusual for me. Then I got up and made some cinnamon pancakes. Course my daughter didn't want any! Picky brat! After all that we went and ran some errands and then went grocery shopping. When we got back my wife called and informed me of a thing that Disney was doing at the Youth Center. So I took my daughter up there and we had hotdogs, chips, koolaid for lunch. Then we decorated Ginger bread Mickeys, and got to see Mickey, Minnie, Goofy, Pluto, Chip and Dale, Peter Pan and Wendy, and Belle. Then they had a little show and a raffle at the end. We ended up winning a DVD and a CD package. The Santa Clause 2 and Disney Christmas Jingles. My daughter was so excited she started to take off without the ticket! Well thats all so far today. I guess I will go see what my daughter is up to because it got real quiet. Make a nice day!

HNT

Well this has to be a fast one this morning. It is 0545 and I am going to be late for work. So the short of it is, click on the pink lingerie lady on the right and visit Osbasso for the rules and let him know if you are playing. As I stated in my last post, this picture is courtesy of a friend who photochopped it for me. Thank You!!

Work

I assume that everyone has noticed my lack of posts recently. Well all I can say is that work sucks and I have been spending alot of time here at work, when I should be at home drinking myself into oblivion. It is starting to cramp my chat time with my friend. Yes she is female. I have heard rumors and even glimpsed pictures!! :) I haven't even had time to get something ready for HNT. Fortunately, my friend has taken it upon herself to do my work for me!! Damn ain't that nice!! I owe her a big kiss!! All she has to do is come and collect it! Thank You! So I will post it tomorrow and you can all tell her what a great job she did! I'm just an object. Hehe.

So I am doing better now that I got that previous post out. Sometimes I truly wish I could do the whole "big, ugly divorce with nasty lawyers" but alas, I am pretty much broke. Most people in the military with families live paycheck to paycheck. Some work second jobs to give some cushion for a rainy day, but I have always felt that the loss of time with the family cannot be made up bt money that will be gone soon anyway. I would much rather spend time with my family than go work somewhere for an extra couple hundred a week. It just isn't worth it. I guess now I could conceivably work one now, but I don't care to anymore. Time to get back in the server room. Take care and make a nice day!

My post

Wednesday I didn’t get out of work till after 5 pm. Sucks but it happens. Thursday (Thanksgiving) I got up early and put the turkey in, surfed HNT’s awhile, made mashed potatoes, gravy, stuffing, and green beans. My wife came over and brought my daughter with her. We had a nice meal together, to me it was very enjoyable. My wife left about 1 pm. I know she went to her friends to celebrate Thanksgiving there. I understand that she feels the need to move on since she no longer wants me. I had to go back in to work around 8 pm so she came back and watched our daughter while I did this. I had to go back in Friday also and asked her if she could pick our daughter up around 1 pm so I could go in and work on the stuff I needed to. She said 5 would be better for her. Well dammit!! Alright fine. Around 3:45 Friday I called her cell to find out if she wanted to meet somewhere and eat before I went in to work. I got her voicemail, so I left her a message to call me. She finally calls me back at 4:15, and I asked her about dinner, etc. she tells me she can’t because the movie is getting ready to start! WTF??!! Its 4:15 and she is supposed to pick our daughter up at 5!! I was so stunned that she would be this flaky when she used to be the most responsible person I ever met! How can she do this? I was upset but I didn’t say anything. I went ahead and went to work and had to leave my daughter in the car because I can’t bring her in the building. It is a strictly controlled access building. I was only inside for about 15 minutes. I hated to do that but I didn’t have anywhere else to take her. After that we went grocery shopping, took them home and then went to Japanese for dinner. I figured I would just drop my daughter off at my wife’s apartment. She wasn’t there when we got there. It is past 7 pm already. So I call her to see how long till she will be home. She then laughs and says, “well, I’m out of town” Again, WTF!!?? She tells me it will be awhile until she gets, so I just told her not to bother coming to pick our daughter up since it would be too late. I know I didn’t do a very good impersonation of being strong in front of my daughter because she heard me sniffling and trying to hide the tears. She asked me if I was crying and I just told her that Daddy’s don’t cry. When we got home I let her watch TV for awhile before bed, then tucked her in and said prayers. She asked me if Mama would be picking her up and I told her that no she wasn’t. Then she asked “well how far out of town is she?” I didn’t think she heard that part of the conversation, but 9 year olds have big ears I guess. All I could think to tell her was “please don’t ask”. Not a very good answer at all, but I just couldn’t handle it anymore. Saturday my wife showed up around 11 am while our daughter was eating lunch. I was sitting out in the screen room trying to keep from breaking down. She came out there and waited for me to acknowledge her. I waited until she spoke. She said “Well I guess I have to apologize again!” I told her that she didn’t have to apologize to me, that she had already left me. She needed to apologize to our daughter because she wanted to spend time with her. My wife told me not to get fooled by her, that all she really wanted was to go play with the girls that live near there. It doesn’t matter what the reason is that she wants to spend time at mama’s house. If that’s where she wants to be then she needs to let her spend time there. It was some more talking and I am not going to go into all of it, but it was more of the same. Then she started telling me that she has to suffer because I have credit card bills! WTF?! She left me, that’s why she is suffering! I’m giving her enough money to pay her rent and buy groceries, plus I am making her car payment for her! Why do I do this you ask? Because of my daughter. Then she asked if I had done anymore work on the divorce paperwork. I told her that I had reprinted the child custody one, because she had marked that she would have custody instead of rotating custody like we agreed. She told me that she marked it that way so that she would get child support! So now I see, she wants to have custody of our daughter so that she can get money. I told her that I would give her $500 a month if she would give me custody, and then she wouldn’t have to worry about being responsible. I told her that she would be able to move to where she could go to college for the degree she wants until she graduates. She got really nasty and said she wasn’t going to go to that school, that she wasn’t going to move away from this area. So evidently her “friend” doesn’t want her to go anywhere. Am I weak for wanting to make sure my daughter has a safe, happy and stable environment? Should I go get a pitbull lawyer and take custody? Would I win? Would it be worth it? My wife currently has no job, she lives on the money I give her. If she gets custody will my daughter suffer? I hate this. Sunday I went over and picked up my daughter for church. I asked my wife if our daughter had eaten breakfast yet. So instead of answering me, she turns around and asks our daughter if she ate breakfast!! COME ON!! She didn’t even make breakfast for her! I told her that I would have her back around 1230 or 1 depending on when church let out. I had her there at 1220. Surprise! No wife. I had a dread filling me when I called her cell phone figuring she would be somewhere else and not able to come back for a long time. When she answered, the first thing she said was “You told me 1230.” Not Hi, Hello, How are you. I simply asked her how long she would be because we were at her apartment. She said she would be there shortly. About 15 minutes later she showed up. I asked her if she wanted to go eat lunch somewhere, but she refused. She asked if I wanted to come in for a little while. So I went in and made small talk about nothing for a half hour or so, then went in to work for a couple of hours. I went to bed wishing that I just didn’t have to ever get up again. I had some seriously bad thoughts about ending it all before I fell asleep. I am still here though and still going through the motions. I have been typing on this for 2 days now. I guess I should post it.

post

This is just a post to say that I have had an extremely emotionally draining weekend so far. There is just so much to say, and I can't seem to get a grasp on it enough to poat it. I will try to do so in the near future.

HNT

Another fine Thursday! It just so happens to be Thanksgiving also. I had contemplated taking a "special" picture with the turkey but decided that I wasn't quite that desperate yet. Note that I said yet! If you don't know what this HNT stuff is all about go click on the pretty lady in pink lingerie on the right side and visit Osbasso and read all about it.

This week I have had a friend play with a picture to post and this is what she gave me for a finished product.

I stole this from The Kat House!

You're a Playful Kisser

Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Another nickel

This morning was PT. Since the gym floor is being resurfaced we had to meet at the running track. No problem. When I woke up this morning I was freezing! Seems the cold front that they were expecting, finally made its way down here. Crap! It was cold! In the 50's cold. I dug out my sweats from the bottom of the drawer and found a sweatshirt, then headed out. The running track is next to what we call the river, since we are on a barrier island that means when the wind blows it isn't fun! We had to run at least a mile and a half, I was freezing and trying to run, so I just ran the mile and a half and was done. We did our cool down and went home to get ready for work. I was happy that the coffee amchine was still on, with hot coffee. The shower got fixed yesterday so that was something else to be happy about. No toothbrush fondling today! Then when I got to work, the world is falling apart. Lovely. And now I get to be the help desk guy! WooHoo!! Make a nice day!

Fun Fun Fun

Well this morning didn't start off too great. I am working the 6-3 shift this week and next, so I set my alarm for 0445. No big deal. The alarm went off, I reached over and smacked it, then fell back asleep. I startled myself awake and looked at the clock a few minutes later to find that it was 0601. CRAP!!! The military doesn't take too kindly to people being late for work. So I rushed to get ready for work, when I got in the shower I realized the the shower handle had broken off yesterday. CRAP!!! I finally managed to get the stub moved enough to turn the water on, take my shower, and then I had to use a toothbrush handle to shut it off. BTW, it wasn't my toothbrush! I keep one in the shower to help scrub grease and dirt off my fingers when I have been working on my car! Then I stumbled over the cat on the way to feed her, because of course she has to be right around your feet when feeding time comes. Finally I get my coffee and head out the door, turned around and got the bills that need to be mailed out, then finally made it to work. 30 Minutes late! NOBODY said a DAMN thing to me!! I guess I just looked grumpy! Sometimes that can be a good thing. So now since I am working the 6-3 shift I have to cover the Helpdesk so they can go eat lunch. Lets just say that it is a misuse of my system privileges! Oh well, it has given me time to blog today! Time to pretend to answer a question incorrectly. Make a nice day!!

Friday

Not much happened last night or this morning. I had a lot of very nice comments from the ladies who check out my blog on Thursdays. Thank you. I have been swamped at work and I still have a crap load to do so this is a very short post today. I hope you all have pleasant weekends. Kiss your special pookie, tell them you love them, and make a nice day.

HNT

Once again it is time for HNT! Yes ladies and gentlemen, it is time to get Half-Nekkid! If you don't know what this is all about click on the little lady in lingerie on the right and check out the rules. After you post yours, go to Osbasso's blog and let him know you are up!! And do that before you start checking out all the other HNT's or it will have a double meaning for you gentlemen!! On to my submission for today. Today you get to see my eyes. I admit I got the idea from LilBit's profile pic, but her eyes are much prettier than mine!! Happy HNT!

It's Wednesday already?

So far this week is flying by! Work is keeping me very busy since it is so hectic. That's probably why time is flying.

My daughter was at home again last night, so we just goofed off some and watched tv. I asked her if she wanted to help me bake a pie this weekend. She asked me how hard is it to take the pie out of the box and put it in the oven. Hmm. I think she does indeed need to help me make a Pecan Pie. She should at least be able to bake!! :) Back to the grind. Make a nice day!

Before the dawn

I woke up a little after 5 this morning. I was cold and shivering. I decided to move over and snuggle up to my wife and get warm. When I got over to her side of the bed, it was empty, and cold. Then I remembered. I sleep alone now. I realized that not only was I cold and shivering, but I was also lonely. Sometimes it just doesn't pay to wake up. I got got up around 0630 and went to PT at the gym. We did our usual push ups, sit ups, stretches, etc. The we got to choose whatever we wanted to do, so I went to the racquetball courts and proceeded to skunk a Capt and a LT who thought they were good. Umm no, sorry guys, but you need alot more practice. After I went home and got cleaned up , I came in to work. As I went through the gate there was a cute female SP checking IDs. She smiled at me, checked my ID then blatantly looked for a wedding ring! Damn. She could only be about 19 or 20 though. I would feel like a child molester!! Damn she is cute though! Make a nice day.

Weekend

This weekend was pretty good. I got called by my wife when I went home for lunch on Thursday. It seems as though our daughter had gone to the nurses office feeling sick and they wanted us to come pick her up. My wife was in class, so she couldn't go do it. I went ahead and picked her up and asked the nephew to watch her until I could get off work. So I managed to get out of work about 1330 on Thursday and had a long weekend. She started feeling better later on that night. So she was with me Thursday night and all day Friday. We decided to go to Chinese for dinner and I called my wife to see if she wanted to meet us there and eat then our daughter could go home with her. When we met up the first thing my daughter said to my wife was, "Can I stay with daddy tonight?" Surprised me and my wife, but we both agreed. So we were eating dinner and they have crab legs on the buffet. They are too much work for the amount of food to be worth it to me, but my wife likes them. So she was eating them and is notorious for splattering other people, she ended up splattering her shirt with some stuff and proceeded to wipe it off. Then she asked if she got everything and I pointed out a spot she had missed on her breast. She said where so I pointed closer and she just moved it onto my finger and asked me to get it for her. Damn her!! So Saturday I tried to call her to see if she could watch our daughter for a couple hours while I went on a bike ride. No answer. She finally calls back around 1400, and asks whats up. I told her what I wanted but it was too late by then. She said she just thought it was our daughter. Lovely. So around 2300 on Saturday, I was talking to someone special on IM and the phone rings. WTF?! Who calls that late? So I answered it and it is my oldest step-daughter. She just wanted to talk and try to find out what was going on with me and her mom. She is upset with her mom too over this. I told her she needed to give her mom, love and support, because she truly needed it. As the conversation went along I found out that she didn't feel safe living with Granny, because her uncle was living there also. Unfortunately he is an addict and has had some run ins with other people. This guy is in his 50's btw. So she wanted to get out of there but feels like she has no where else to go. I told her she could come back down here, but she doesn't have a way to pay for the car Granny bought for her. I tried to make sure she understood that if she wanted to come home she was more than welcome. Space might be an issue, but she was welcome. I had to stop the conversation I had going with the person I was IM'ing to follow along with what my sd was talking about. She tends to talk alot. We finally got done around 1230. So I txt'd my friend and told her goodnight. I felt bad for blowing her off like that and apologized on Sunday. She understood. I think at first she thought I was dismissing her for another woman. Sunday was busy too. First church, then grocery shopping, then finally I had to take my daughter back to her mom. Last night was some more conversation and bed. Now this morning when I got here I had so many tasks in email that I made a list. 10 items that I need to take care of. So what am I doing first? BLOGGING!! :) I better get to my list. Tell someone you love them and Make a nice day!

I stole something!

I stole this from Blondie. I wonder if she will even notice? It's funny, someone challenged her to go for a week without blogging about her Tits (they are nice!), her ass (also very nice!), or alcohol (she drinks A LOT of wine!). Its been three days and she is having problems!! Haha!!

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Iron Bat Your Superpower is Shape Shifter Your Weakness is Frogs Your Weapon is Your Meat Bludgeon Your Mode of Transportation is Motorcycle

What's your Superhero Name?

Umm, can someone explain to me what a "Meat bludgeon" is? Because if my superhero name is The Iron Bat and my weapon is a meat bludgeon, does that mean my real life job is porn star? Or am I just living below the gutter? :)

HNT

Well folks it is the greatest day of the week today. HNT!!! Yay! I got inputs for my submission to HNT. What is HNT you ask? Click on the link on the right side over there that shows a woman in lingerie!! Then be prepared for all the fun. My entry is my throwback to the '80s. I wonder how many people can tell me what this is from.

Where am I? Huh?

The past couple of days have been extremely fast paced and hectic. I made the comment yesterday to my Captain that if today started out as a continuation of yesterday I was going to stand on his desk and urinate just so I could leave and not worry about this shit! Kind of caught him off guard, then he realized that I was fucking with him. I told him to bring a rain coat just in case. Last night I got to talk to the person who made my weekend enjoyable, so I had a good night last night. I forgot all about work for a little while. It was very nice. So any requests for HNT tomorrow? I need to get back to these butthole surfers here. Make a nice day!!

Work

I am so swamped at work today with meetings and BULLSHIT that I don't have time to do a decent post today. I will try to post more later today. Make a nice day!

Dang it!

Well the tickets for our Winter Social have gone on sale today. So now I wonder, Do I go by myself this year or not? I want to go, but I don't want to go by myself. I had fun last year and they had some good door prizes. A big screen TV was the final door prize. So should I go or not?

Weekend

I had a pretty good weekend. Probably the best I have had in a year. What did I do? Nothing but talk. And thats all you get to know for now!

I went for a ride on Saturday morning, but didn't do the whole 20 miles. My knee started to bother me a little so I cut 3 miles off my ride. After that I mowed the grass. Hopefully I won't have to do that again this year. I probably will though. Then my wife came over with my daughter. I was chatting with someone on the internet and I left the window open. My wife asked to use my computer to check her email, so I just minimized everything. I think she opened the window up and read it though. She can't say anything though! So yesterday when she came over to pick our daughter up, she was wearing the perfume that she knows drives me nuts. HHMMMM I wonder why? Trying to keep her territory? Maybe she got nervous when she saw that I was actually talking to another woman? I don't know. Anyone got any insight to this? Time for me to get to work. Tell your pookie that you love them and make a nice day!

Fun at home

So yesterday evening my wife came over after her appointment and showed me where they had removed the stitches. Seems they couldn't get all the sticky stuff off her skin. While she was there th nephew came home and had his girlfriend with him, so my wife got to meet her finally. I don't think they thought much of each other. Ha Ha!! So my wife left shortly after that and the nephew and his girlfriend went surfing. When they got back my daughter got "the pope" (work nickname for nephews girlfriend) to try her special drink. Orange juice and Hawaiian Punch. Then got her to play air hockey and basically kept her occupied for an hour or so. After they ate they went in the nephews bedroom and hid. So my daughter had fun for a little while. My wife had made the comment before she left that the pope had quite a bit of junk in the trunk. The nephew likes them that way. It works for him! So this morning my wife came over to get our daughter and the pope was still in the nephews room, so I told him to keep her hidden until my wife left. I just don't feel like dealing with her shit about it. But it was a generally fun evening last night. Time for me to get to work. Tell someone you love them and make a nice day!

Hmmm

Something I noticed a little while ago, all my links with the exception of Osbasso and AVE are all women. Almost all of the comments today are from women. So if I have this kind of luck with women online, how come I don't in the real world? Is it me? Or does the internet give enough anonymity to allow people to be more open about what they feel and say?

I do want to thank all the ladies who have made my ego swell today. Thank You very much!

Happy HNT!

I took Blondie's suggestion for this picture. Although it isn't as good as she was hoping. There's no obvious six pack, it is there, it's just hidden beneath the Krispy Kremes, Dunkin Donuts, and various other fat pills! If you look hard enough you can see a little bit though. Now for the question to put to the jury, Was I sucking it in or not? :)

Theft

Mike posted this as a comment on another blog. I liked it enough that I had to steal it!

When I'm having a dream without sexual activity, I change the channel.

Now all I have to do is find the damn remote!!

Loneliest before the Dawn

Seems like it is always the loneliest time of the day just before dawn. I wake up before the alarm clock goes off and find myself snuggled with a pillow. It just doesn't snuggle with me. So then I am awake, cold and lonely. Will I ever get over it? Probably. I wonder how long until I can get a handle on myself and move on. Everyone keeps telling me that there are many more fish in the sea, but there is still only one that I want. She just doesn't want me. I need to quit being maudlin.

Anybody have any requests or ideas for HNT tomorrow? I have to think about it and come up with something. Time for me to do something called work. First I have to remember what it is that I do. Make a nice day!

Halloween

Well Halloween around my house was pretty much a bust. Where I live is going to be leveled within 6 months, I am waiting for my house to be finished so they can move me. Consequently there are only 4 families on my entire street. I had one car load of kids come to the house for candy last night. Bummer. My wife dressed my daughter up as a cat, ears and tail included, and brought her over before she went trick or treating. She was being grumpy so the pictures I took of her show her being unhappy. I don't know why she was grumpy. When she called me before she went to bed she was happy and told me all about her two trips out. Seems as though she got so much candy she had to come home to unload. My nephew came home fairly early last night and brought the girl of the month with him. I teased him this morning about keeping the poor girl up and giggling that late into the night. He turned pretty red, but laughed about it. He made the comment that the house must not be very soundproof. I pointed out that each bedroom door has a big vent in it. I finally relented and quit teasing him. Other than that I don't have much to say. Make a nice day!

Camel Toads

I came across this story last night and figured a few people would get a laugh about it so I am going to post it. If my aunt was this nosy I wouldn't be staying with her! :)

Phone calls

I debated on whether I wanted to post this tonight or wait for tomorrow. I think you can figure out that I decided to post tonight. So, Saturday morning I got up and decided to go for my bike ride. It takes me roughly 2 hours to ride 20 miles. Yeah I know I'm slow. I got reasons!! I stop at all the beach access areas and check them out! :) Yeah I'm a dog, so what?! All I do is look anyways. When I got back my nephew was home, looking kinda rough. Alright!! At least someone had a great night! So we sat and chatted while I cooled down and let the sweat stop dripping. He told me that my wife had left a message on the machine for me. I went and checked it, she wanted to know when I wanted her to bring my daughter over. This is before noon btw. I am supposed to get my daughter on Tues, Thurs, and Sat nights. Since I was still sweaty and smelly I decided to clean up before I called her back since I didn't want to have her drop off my daughter while I was in the shower. While I am in the shower the phone rings. I figured it was her. I can just hear my nephew talking on the phone so I knew he was still on it. My cell phone rings while I am still in the shower. It was the ringtone for my wife. Damn she must really want to get ahold of me! Since I was in the shower I didn't answer it. I finally got out and got dressed and decided to go grocery shopping before I picked up my daughter. On my way to the store my cell phone rings again. Now I'm getting pissed off. She must have something she wants to do and needs to get rid of our daughter so she can go do it. So I was a prick and didn't answer it. Sue me! When I got to the store I left my phone in the car and shopped in peace. Well as peacefully as you can get in a crowded store! When I finished shopping and got home, I put everything away and then called my wife. She answered and I asked her what she needed. She started in on me and raising her voice telling me she had things to do, etc... I cut her off and told her that since she left me I don't have to put up with her shit anymore. That shut her up for a minute, then she started telling me that I was the one who was always rainsing my voice at her and how I am the one who caused all the probl... CLICK!!! I hung up on her. I waited a half an hour then called her back. I asked her when she was bringing our daughter over, to which she was very nice when she told me that she would bring her over in a few minutes. Maybe I should have hung up on her more a long time ago!! So today when I brought my daughter back over, she asked me to come in for a few minutes. Then she asked me to go sit out back with her for awhile. We talked outside for about 2 hours before I got up and told her that I needed to go. She was pleasant and happy the whole time. Like I said a few lines up, maybe I should have hung up on her a long time ago. Seems strange that the worse I treat her the better she likes me, and the nicer I treat her the meaner she is to me. WTF is that all about? Any women want to sell me a clue? I can't treat her like shit all the time, it's just not me. Is she going through a midlife crisis? I wish I was psychic. It would make relationships with women a whole lot easier. Then again, I don't think I want to know what goes on in a woman's head!! Well I just finished off the half gallon of Blue Bell Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough ice cream, so I better post this before I can't waddle my ass to my chair to channel surf.

And thank you all for the nice comments. I love opening my page and finding that someone actually managed to read through the drivel that I posted!

Tell your pookie that you love them and Make a nice day!

mood

I was just sitting here working on some of the paperwork for the divorce and got depressed. I don't even know why I decided to write anything here on my blog. I guess maybe because it has helped cheer me up in the past. Is it always this hard on people? Or am I just too weak to deal with this? I wish I could just go home for a month or two. Something else I just thought of, I need to change my life insurance beneficiary. I guess I should make it my daughter, but since she is underage would that be legal?

Already?

Wow this week flew by! I guess two days off because of Wilma had something to do with it seeming to go quick. Not much else to write about. I didn't get any work done yesterday because of HNT. I spent all day doing that. Do I feel guilty? Umm, No?! :) Some of the pictures I had to close quickly. Since here at work that isn't something I should be looking at. I just had to write down which blog it was and visit it from home. If you didn't look at Tacogirl's offering you should. Very nice! Just gotta see if she will post those "artistic nudes" for us to ponder over... :) I guess I need to do some work today. At least a couple things before I sneak out early. Make a nice day!

HNT!

Happy HNT. I was trying to figure out what I would post today and it came to me last night. You see last night I helped my nephew replace his rotors and pads on his car. When we were done I washed up and realized that my hand felt naked without my wedding ring on. So I took a picture since it felt like it would fit right in for today. Some of you visiting today probably haven't read the rest of my blog, but there is a reason for my madness. Tell someone you love them and make a nice day!

Hump Day

Well the excitement is over for the most part. It is still cold here. I say cold but it is actually in the mid 60's. Yeah I know, whine, whine, whine. Shut up! I been in the south so long my blood is thin! :) I did happen to notice yesterday while I was out, that women have put on tight jeans since the weather got cool. I forgot that women look good in tight jeans! Course I will vote for short-shorts over jeans any day of the week, but tight jeans are better than baggy ones. I better do some work. Make a nice day!

Thief!!

I'm stealing this from Jessica. Smurf Name Generator. My Smurf name is As-Seen-on-TV Smurf. What is yours?

Wilma III

The day after. I took a couple pictures this morning so you could see what it looks like afterwards. No damage at my house except for some branches and stuff. It got really cold too. I mean I had to actually put on a jacket today! This sucks!!

Haloscan

I went ahead and added Haloscan for the comments. I decided that I would go with "PINK" comments too. Because most guys like the pink. :) I know I do!

Wilma II

I figured I would post some pictures looking out the back door and a couple from the front. They aren't real good because the camera keeps focusing on the screens, but a couple I stepped outside and took. Enjoy!

Wilma

Well folks it seems that I get a day off work today because of Wilma. It is raining pretty good here and the wind is kicking stuff around. I guess that means its time to go to the beach right? :) I'll write more later. Hopefully we won't lose power. Make a nice day!


WILMA

MP3's

Does anyone know if it is possible to post an MP3 file on my blog? I know that if I had it hosted somewhere else I could link to it, but I want to post it in my blog. Any hints would be appreciated!

Wow Lots of comments!

There sure were a lot of comments yesterday! I want to thank everyone who left comments or just came and checked it out. By my count there are 11 comments for just getting rid of the name, and 8 for a full coverup. I guess I need to find a tattoo artist around here that is good. I always enjoy going to tattoo parlors. There are usually women there who have tattoos and piercings. When you get really lucky they are actually in the chair. So does anyone know of a good tattoo artist that is in my area? The guy who did my arms moved to Minnesota and started his own shop there. The guy who did my back is dead. (His girlfriend shot him with a .22 rifle 17 times. I think she was slightly pissed off about something.) And the guy who did the one that I need to have changed is in Fort Walton Beach, Florida. I'm not driving that far just for a tattoo. I would fly to Minnesota to have the guy who did my arms cover it up though. He has been in several of the magazines since he did my arms. According to his shops website, you have to make an appointment a couple of weeks or more in advance. Oh well. Too cold that far north right now. My idea of winter is low 60's and rough surf at the beach! :)

So the last 18 hours or so have been interesting. My wife had to go in to the dermatologist yesterday afternoon to have some more stuff around where she had a mole removed cut out. The mole came back with some inconsistencies so they wanted to make sure it was all gone. So I picked my daughter up from school and one of my wifes friends started a conversation and told me she was sorry about our situation, and that if I wanted to talk to give her a call. She told me that she had gone through the same thing herself. I don't know what my wife told her, but it is interesting that her friend sided with me. Course that was to my face, maybe she said the same thing to her. Then later on that night, my mother-in-law called and talked to me for 45 minutes. Told me that I was welcome to bring my daughter and come up there for Christmas, and that my wife wasn't invited. WTF?! How can she be that mad at her daughter? I told her that she needed to give my wife a lot of love and support, whether she thought she deserved it or not. We then got into a conversation about my nephew. I accidentally let slip that he has gathereed a small harem here. She laughed and told me to tell him to bring some a little bit older home for me. ??? This is coming from my mother-in-law! Umm yeah ok. Anyway, this morning my wife comes over to pick up our daughter for school, ends up spilling coffee in my bathroom and starts crying. All I could do was hold her and tell her it was ok. When the immediate crying finished, she asked me to put a waterproof bandage on the spot that they cut on yesterday. Holyshit!! Turns out they had to cut so much out that they put in 10 stitches. So I think she is scared about that. Maybe her family is giving her such a hard time that it is tearing her up. Either way I don't know. I told her that if she wanted to talk she knows where I am. As much as it hurts that she left me, it hurts me even more to see her in pain or crying. I guess I still love her. I guess I will see where the future takes me. Make a nice day!

HNT

Happy HNT!




So here is my HNT posting for this week. This was something I swore to myself that I would never do, get a tattoo with a name in it. Well 3 years ago I went and did it. I got my wifes name tattooed on me. Now since she has left me, I need to figure out what I should do. Do I just get the name covered, do I get the whole thing covered up, or do I get something like a broken heart tattooed over it with her name still showing? I'm up for ideas, so if anyone has any, drop me a comment! Bet you didn't know this was going to be interactive today did you?!

confused again

Well here I am, confused again. I'll explain. Yesterday my wife called and was real nice on the phone, then she asked if I could watch our daughter for a few hours in the evening because she had a study group for one of her classes. Thats cool. I get to see my daughter for a few hours. So she says she will bring her over about 6 or 6:30. Ok by me. about 5 she shows up to drop her off. Not a problem. She even made chicken and dumplings and brought them over for me to eat. Wow. Dinner and time with my daughter! On her way out she mentioned that our daughter still had to do her homework so I got her book out and looked at what she had to do. She failed a math test so she had extra work to do so that she could retake the test. She wasn't happy about having to do it. She was still working on it when her mom came to pick her up about 7:30. When I opened the door for my wife I could see that she had red eyes like she had been crying. OK. It hurts to see it, but as far as I know it isn't my business, so I didn't say anything about it. She wanted to talk to me in private so we went back to the bedroom and she started showing me what paperwork I had to fill out for the divorce. Yay. Then she started in on me about "taking back the jewelry" and how it wasn't very nice, etc. So I took the bait and started arguing with her. Then I figured out that what she wanted was to argue with me, so I just said "fine, it was." And dropped it. Took the wind out of her sails. So then she started on something else. I just walked out so that I wouldn't get into an argument with her. If she wants to argue with someone, she can call one of her "friends" and start something with them. So now I am wondering why she was crying and why did she try to start an argument with me?

Anger?

Well this morning when my wife came over to get our daughter for school, she acted like she was mad at me. WTF?! I didn't do anything or say anything to her, she just seemed mad at me. How should I handle that? Any clues? Cause I'm just a dumb guy. What did I miss?

Phone call

Well I had a phone call from my sister-in-law last night. I talked to her for half an hour. She said that my step daughter is pissed off at her mom, my mother-in-law isn't talking to my wife, and both sisters are trying to "talk some sense" into my wife. I told them that they need to give her some space and not pressure her. Just give her love and support. Is that the right thing to do? Is that going to make her continue on the road she has chosen? I don't know. But the line that keeps coming to mind is, "If you love someone, set them free. If they come back to you they are yours. If they don't, they never were." All I know for sure is that it is very lonely at home. Make a nice day.

Weekend

Well my weekend was ok. Nothing great. I had my daughter all weekend though so that was nice. I already posted about my computer dying. Didn't do a lot of anything really though. Just me and my daughter hanging out playing games. Of course the fun was the fact that the nephew brought some girl home with him Friday night. Woke my daughter up about 0400. SHe is only nine but she wasn't happy about it. She let him know it too. When the girl finally did the walk of shame around 1 in the afternoon, my daughter just gave her one of those dirty looks. I had actually taken my daughter and went to run some errands so that they could get out of the house without too much embarrassment. They didn't take the opportunity though. After the nephew took her home he and I were talking and it seems as though he is seeing 3 different girls. Uh oh. Bad idea. It's his balls though. I warned him to be careful. Yesterday, I made some beef stew in the crock pot for dinner. My daughter wanted my wife to come over and eat dinner with us, so she did. I didn't do too well. The recipe wasn't that good. But we ate it anyway. We talked and laughed and had a nice dinner. After dinner, she wanted to take a few things with her, and she started going through the jewelry. When she initially told me she was leaving, she told me she didn't want any of the jewelry I gave her. Fine I told her I would put it away for our daughter. The stuff that wan't in the jewelry box got put away. Last night she started giving me a hard time and generally being a bitch about me "taking back" all the jewelry I gave her. I told her she was the one who told me she didn't want it. She then stated that if she had known it was conditional she wouldn't have accepted any of it. I was pissed then and told her that if I had known she was going to leave me, then I wouldn't have given the jewelry or paid for her tits. Then we both got quiet. I know I had to say something to stick up for myself and stop her from berating me, but I still felt like shit for saying it. After a while we were in the kitchen and she was getting ready to leave, I gave her a hug and told her I was sorry things were working out the way they were. When we separated I saw a tear in her eyes before she put her sunglasses on. I wish I could shut off my emotions and not love her anymore. After they left I had another sit down and cry. I guess I better go for now. Make a nice day.

Crash

Well I had a lovely surprise when I got home Friday. My computer crashed. Hard. The hard drive went, Buh Bye! I had to go buy a new one. So Friday night was spent reinstalling everything. Saturday was spent finishing it up and then getting all the data that I could off the old hard drive. Thankfully I recovered almost everything. I know there is some stuff that I haven't found that is gone yet. I will come across it soon though. Fun. Back to work I go.

Friday

It's finally the day we all look forward to. My daughter will be with me all weekend. Atleast until Sunday afternoon anyway. I really don't have much to write about today. We had briefings all morning, and we are supposed to have more this afternoon. Lots of fun. So I will stop now. Make a nice day.

Test

Well here is a test that my nephew emailed me. I scored a 568. Anyone else come close? Come on post your scores!! :)

Phone call

I just got a phone call from my wife. She wants me to swap nights with my daughter this week because she is out of school on Friday. So instead of having her tonight, I will have her Friday night and Saturday night. Now don't get me wrong I love my daughter and want to spend as much time as I can with her, but I had planned to go for a bike ride Saturday morning. I'm sorry, but she just isn't up to riding 22 miles. I reminded my wife about my bike rides and she told me that she would be willing to come over and watch our daughter on Saturday morning. As long as it wasn't too early. Why do I get the feeling she had intended to come over anyway? I know she probably needs to do laundry, and there is probably something else she wants to take with her. Oh well, I will take what time I can get with my daughter when I can. She won't be a little girl much longer. Tell someone you love them!

Happy HNT!

Well here is my post for today. It is up to you to figure out if I am Half-Nekkid or all nekkid. No haters!

Something to do

I got bored tonight, so I was looking at some blogs. I decided to steal this from Osbasso.

Google Images
I stole this from Osbasso who stole it from Ago-go, who stole it from the lovely Kalani, who stole.....

Directions:
Go to Google and click on the images link. Type in the following and post the first (or your favorite) picture the search engine finds.
- The name of the town where you grew up
- The name of the town where you live now
- Your name
- Your Grandmother’s name (pick one)
- Your favorite food
- Your favorite drink
- Your favorite song
- Your favorite smell


- The name of the town where you grew up



- The name of the town where you live now



- Your name



- Your Grandmother’s name (pick one)



- Your favorite food




- Your favorite drink



- Your favorite song
ANYTHING GOES




- Your favorite smell

Or

OOOPPPSSSS!!!

Yeah I just had a brain fart and caused a big oops at work. I put in a request to shut down a rack of servers so we could move some power to another circuit. I got word back shortly before the requested time that it was approved. I forgot to tell my many managers what we were doing and by the time they figured out something was going wrong, I had the servers back up and running. So I got my ass chewed for actually doing my job. The captain was upset because I was going to get him fired. Yeah right. If anyone is getting fored over this it is me. Please let them fire me!! I'll go pick up trash or something for a few months before they put me back in charge. Give me a vacation! The captain wasn't happy when I informed him that I had found it easier to beg for forgiveness than ask for permission! But hey, I had a good time! :)) Ha Ha!!

Weekend

On Saturday I went to Sam's to get a new kitchen table. When I checked out I was told that my card was rejected. WTF?! So I had to go to the membership desk. It was rejected because the bill wasn't paid last month. Funny I don't remember charging anything on it. Turns out my wife chaarged some stuff on it but never paid it. Lovely. So I had to go to an ATM and come back with a payment so I could put more money on it. Just great. I finally got the table home and put it together. Without the leaf in it, it is rather small. With the leaf in it though, it seems rather large. Oh well I guess I'll just have to deal with it. Make a nice day.

In-Laws

Well my wife finally told her family that she left me. Her mother and both sisters all called me to find out if I was doing ok. A couple minutes after I got off the phone with her mom, my wife called me and asked me why I told her mom that she was seeing someone else. Funny, I don't recall telling her mom that. Then she tells me that her mom asked her if she had met someone else. So I guess she assumes that her mother and sisters don't know her. I was going to write that I wish I had known her like that so I wouldn't have had to go through this pain, but, I don't believe that. I would gladly go through the pain again because it was worth it. Even if all I have left is my daughter and a lot of pain, it was worth it. I just wish the tears wouldn't come so easy. Men aren't supposed to cry.

Friday

Well it's Friday. Whee!! I sat at home all alone last night. The nephew was working, and my wife had my daughter. It felt so lonely. I wish I was the type of person who could just go out and meet people, but I'm 35. Where do people my age go and hang out? I know where the younger generation hangs out, but they are too young for me to hang out with. I ended up turning the stereo on so I would have some noise, and surfed the internet. One of these days I will go out somewhere. Make a nice day.

HNT

What the hell, I guess I will join the HNT fun as well. Here are my hairy legs and feet!

My Safety Briefing

Well my safety briefing this morning got a lot of laughs and people clapped when I got done, so I guess I did a good enough job on it. I decided to post it here for everyone to read. It is rather long though, so get a cup of coffee or something to keep yourself awake.

HALLOWEEN SAFETY BRIEFING


Yesterday shortly before I was going to sneak out early, SMSgt McC came
strutting into my office to inform me that since my airman was sick and
couldn't be notified that he was giving the safety briefing today, that I
would have the honor of briefing everyone about safety. My first reaction
was "I don't think so!", but since I couldn't pawn it off on one of my other
folks if I wouldn't do it myself I kept my mouth shut. My second thought
was, "What the hell do I brief about?" I know, everyone's favorite topic,
SAFE SEX! Well maybe not everyone's but a large percentage of people talk
about it a lot. But then I figured I'd better not, because you should always
brief about something you know about. Besides, I'm not as fearless as TSgt
Fedorko is about making fun of people. So I kept pondering about what I
should brief about, lightning safety. No it's been done. Rip currents, no it
was done not too long ago also. Then I had a good idea, since it is October
I should brief about Halloween safety. So I figured I could find something
about it on the Internet pretty easy. The first site I went to was
www.halloweenmagazine.com/play.html
It had a list of basic rules for Halloween safety for your kids. And for TSgt F.

Always use common sense.

Young children should always go trick-or-treating with an adult.

Never trick-or-treat alone. Have at least 2 buddies go with you.

Plan your entire route and make sure your family knows what it is.

Make sure that you are wearing a flame retardant costume.

Wait until you get home and your parents check your candy before you eat it.

Be very cautious of strangers.

Accept treats only in the doorway. Never go inside a house.

Be sure and say thank you for your treats.

Don't play near lit jack-o-lanterns.

Visit only houses where the lights are on.

Walk, Do not run.

Walk on sidewalks and driveways.

Cross the street at the corner or in a crosswalk.

Take a cellular phone with you if possible.

Wear a watch.

Carry a flashlight.

This site even has a little safety quiz for your kids if you want to test
them. The second site I went to was www.lafd.org/hween.htm
This site had a lot of information as well,most of it is a duplicate of the first site, but expanded on some.

BEFORE HALLOWEEN:

* Plan costumes that are bright and reflective. Make sure that shoes fit
well and that costumes are short enough to prevent tripping, entanglement or
contact with flame.

* Consider adding reflective tape or striping to costumes and trick-or-treat
bags for greater visibility.

* Secure emergency identification (name, address, phone number) discreetly
within Halloween attire or on a bracelet.

* Because a mask can limit or block eyesight, consider non-toxic and
hypoallergenic makeup or a decorative hat as a safe alternative.

* When shopping for costumes, wigs and accessories, purchase only those with
a label indicating they are flame resistant.

* Think twice before using simulated knives, guns or swords. If such props
must be used, be certain they do not appear authentic and are soft and
flexible to prevent injury.

* Obtain flashlights with fresh batteries for all children and their escorts.

* Plan ahead to use only battery powered lanterns or chemical lightsticks in
place of candles in decorations and costumes.

* This is also a great time to buy fresh batteries for your home Smoke Alarms.

* Teach children their home phone number and to how call 9-1-1 if they have
an emergency or become lost. Remind them that 9-1-1 can be dialed free from
any phone.

* Review with your children the principle of "Stop-Drop-Roll", should their
clothes catch on fire.

* Openly discuss appropriate and inappropriate behavior at Halloween time.

* Consider purchasing individually packaged healthy food alternatives (or
safe non-food treats) for those who visit your home.

* Take extra effort to eliminate tripping hazards on your porch and walkway.
Check around your property for flower pots, low tree limbs, support wires or
garden hoses that may prove hazardous to young children rushing from house
to house.

* Learn or review CPR skills to aid someone who is choking or having a
heart attack.

* Consider safe party guidelines when hosting an Adult or Office Party.



FUN ALTERNATIVES:

* Find a special event or start one in your own neighborhood.

* Community Centers, Shopping Malls and Houses of Worship may have organized
festivities.

* Share the fun by arranging a visit to a Retirement Home or Senior
Center.

* Create an alliance with College Fraternities, Sororities or Service Clubs
for children's face painting or a carnival.



BEFORE NIGHTFALL ON HALLOWEEN:

* A good meal prior to parties and trick-or-treating will discourage
youngsters from filling up on Halloween treats.

* Consider fire safety when decorating. Do not overload electrical outlets
with holiday lighting or special effects, and do not block exit doors.

* While children can help with the fun of designing a Jack O' Lantern, leave
the carving to adults.

* Always keep Jack O' Lanterns and hot electric lamps far away from drapes,
decorations, flammable materials or areas where children and pets will be
standing or walking.

* Plan and review with your children the route and behavior which is
acceptable to you.

* Do not permit children to bicycle, roller-blade or skateboard.

* Agree on a specific time when revelers must return home.

* Along with flashlights for all, older children and escorts should wear a
wristwatch and carry coins for non-emergency phone calls.

* Confine, segregate or otherwise prepare household pets for an evening of
frightful sights and sounds. Be sure that all dogs and cats are wearing
collars and proper identification tags. Consult your veterinarian for
further advice.

* Remind all household drivers to remain cautious and drive slowly
throughout the community.

* Adult partygoers should establish and reward a designated driver.



WHEN TRICK-OR-TREATING:

* A Parent or responsible Adult should always accompany young children on
their neighborhood rounds.

* Remind Trick-or-Treaters:
o By using a flashlight, they can see and be seen by others.
o Stay in a group, walk slowly and communicate where you are going.
o Only trick-or-treat in known neighborhoods at homes that have a porch light on.
o Remain on well-lit streets and always use the sidewalk.
o If no sidewalk is available, walk at the farthest edge of the roadway facing traffic.
o Never cut across yards or use alleys.
o Never enter a stranger's home or car for a treat.
o Obey all traffic and pedestrian regulations.
o Always walk. Never run across a street.
o Only cross the street as a group in established crosswalks.
o Remove any mask or item that will limit eyesight before crossing a street, driveway or alley.
o Don't assume the right of way. Motorists may have trouble seeing Trick-or- Treaters. Just because one car stops, doesn't mean others will.
o Never consume unwrapped food items or open beverages that may beoffered.
o No treats are to be eaten until they are thoroughly checked by an Adult at home.
o Law Enforcement authorities should be notified immediately of any suspicious or unlawful activity.


AFTER TRICK-OR-TREATING:

* Wait until children are home to sort and check treats. Though tampering is
rare, a responsible Adult should closely examine all treats and throw away
any spoiled, unwrapped or suspicious items.

* Try to apportion treats for the days following Halloween.

* Although sharing is encouraged, make sure items that can cause choking (such as hard candies), are given only to those of an appropriate age.



The third site I went to is rats2u.com/halloween/halloween_safety.htm
This site had numerous links to other sites that had more information than I have time too
put you to sleep today. One thing to remember about Halloween safety is to use common sense.




I finished it a little better, but I don't remember exactly what I said. But I got through it!

Honey

Well yesterday I had three women call me honey. I think that it was just a natural reply for them though. The first one was on the phone when I called up Sam's Club to inquire about whether they had a table in stock. The lady on the other end told me to have a nice day honey. The second one was Jessica in a comment. (Thank You Jess!) :) And the last one was my wife last night. I was helping her move some more stuff over to her apartment and it was starting to rain so she said "hurry up honey." I guess all it really takes to make me feel better is a single word from three women. I have to go give this safety briefing so I will post more later. Make a nice day!

Safety

Sometimes SNCO's just piss me the fuck off!! The superintendent came in a few minutes ago and informed me that I would be giving a safety briefing at tomorrows commanders call. Gee Thanks! So now I am researching what I can on the subject I decided on. Halloween Safety! Alright I gotta get to work, public speaking isn't my thing, so I may need some liquid courage tomorrow morning!!

days

Ever have one of those days where you just want to talk to somebody? Not just someone that you work with or see in the hall, but someone who you can actually confide in? I've been sitting here and I can't think of anyone I could actually confide in. Besides the chaplains, they don't count. How sad is that?

Sleep

I noticed the other day that even though I now have the bed all to myself, I still sleep on "my" side. Why is that? How come I can't seem to spread out and get comfortable anywhere else on the bed? Any psychologists out there feel like explaining it to me?

Well I made an 82 on my Algebra quiz last night. I did most everything on it, but there were a couple that I didn't feel like wasting the time on so I just scribbled something down and turned it in. He graded while I waited then figured out my final grade. It is an 88. Then he wrote an A for my grade. Cool. So now I still have a 4.0 in college. WHoo Hoo!

Othere than that I don't have much to write about now. My daughter stayed with me last night, so her mom came over this morning to take her to school. She just walked in. Didn't bother to knock. If I went over to her place and just walked in, she would have a cow. I guess I need to mention to her that she doesn't live here anymore, so she should have the common courtesy to at least knock on the door. I better get to work. Or at least pretend I am doing something worthwhile. Make a nice day.

In limbo

I guess I am just in limbo now. Thats what it feels like anyway. Last night before I fell asleep I thought of what I wanted to write about today, but this morning I can't remember what it was. Must not have been a good topic. Yesterday wasn't alot of fun. I came home from work, and did some cleaning, rearranged a few things, and surfed the internet. I had a frozen chicken pattie and some tater tots for dinner. Yum. Cooking for one feels so pathetic. Maybe this week I will make some meatloaf or something. Maybe some taco meat. I could have tacos one night and burritos the next. Maybe spread it out for a few days. I guess I need to get a crockpot also. That way I can set something up to cook all day when I am at work, and have a hot meal when I get home. Better than a sandwich I think. Tonight I have my Algebra class. It is the last quiz, and even if I fail it miserably I can pass the class without taking the final. So there is no motivation at all to do the homework or even study. I can't even remember what the sections are that will be on the quiz. How sad is that. My wife called about 8 pm last night to inform me that she would be taking the dining room table on Wednesday. Whatever. I told her that I would help her if she wanted me too, all she had to do was ask.

I'm thinking of copying Tacogirl and doing 100 random things about me. I just don't know if I can come up with that many. Like I said, I'm thinking about it. I guess I better get to work. Take care. Make a nice day.

It's real I think

Well last night was my first night alone. Friday and Saturday night I had my daughter. The nephew went to Jacksonville for the weekend, and as far as I know hasn't made it back yet. So I was truly alone last night. I went to Wally World after my wife took my daughter with her last night and got a bunch of the cheap furniture to replace what she took with her. Then I spent the rest of the night putting it all together. Dinner was two slices of pizza heated up in the microwave. (I get the microwave!) Side note: I actaully had a very pretty woman come up to me in Wal-Mart and talk to me. Granted it was just about a light bulb, but I think it might have been more if I hadn't been wearing my ring. I can't seem to take it off yet. Anyway, I weighed myself this morning. Seems like I lost 5 pounds somewhere in the past couple days. I need to anyway. Probably another 10 and I'll be rid of the belly blubber enough to actually show a six pack again. So my wifes mom called on Saturday night. My wife hasn't told her that she left me yet. So mom talks to me for probably half an hour then finally asks if her daughter is available. I informed her that she wasn't home. Mom asked if we had an argument, I just told her that she should talk to her daughter. She knows something isn't right, but not what exactly. I guess last night it set in that this is for real. I just don't know what to do with myself now. Make a nice day.

She's gone

Well she got most everything tshe wanted moved out today. I guess that was her birthday present to herself. One of the first things she wanted to do was exchange the coffee pot that I got her. Figures. I had to tell one of the guys that I work with what is going on so that I could ask him to help move her stuff. He has a truck. So now I guess people at work will figure out that something is wrong. One of the benefits of working where I work, if you ask someone to keep something a secret, they prety much do. There are a few who can't keep their mouths shut, but they are known for the most part, because all it takes is once, and people won't tell you anything. I was having a pretty hard time not crying while we were moving stuff. After all the big stuff was done, she came back and showered since she doesn't have everything set up over there yet. She asked me to carry her nightstand out to her car without removing the drawers or stuff in it. I don't think so. I opened it up and started pulling stuff out, and a bunch of the jewelry that she said she was going to put in a jewelry box for our daughter was in it. Hmmm. I set it aside and kept going. When she saw that I had it set out, she got pissy with me about anything she could think of. Then she told me I should just go through her jewelry box since all that she had is what I gave her. I told her that wasn't what I wanted. I want her to sit down with me for 15 or 20 minutes and go through the stuff and set aside the things that she never wears and doesn't like. I should probably mention that when I went to the desert I spent alot of money on gold. If I were to tally up what all the jewelry is worth it would be at least $15K. Most of it is 18 or 22 karat also. There is also a bunch of family heirloom stuff that my mom gave to her. I was told to specifically get the heirloom stuff back. So anyway, when she was leaving she asked what time I was going to go tv shopping. I told her I would probably head out about 9 am. She got all mad, and then started giving me a hard time. Hell all I wanted was to take her car so that if I found something I could get it home without having it delivered if that is even available. I don't think Wal-Mart delivers. Then she got mad at me because she might want to sleep in. WTF?! Her last words to me were, to call her before I come over. How about if I go over and swap cars and don't bother to even knock on the door? I got my own keys, and if she thinks I am going to give them up while I'm still making payments, I don't fucking think so!! Well this was supposed to be a quick little update, but I am getting pissed off again so I better go. Find a fuck buddy and have a good time!!

Some days

Something my mother-in-law sent me yesterday.

Good guy?

So my soon to be ex-wife tells me that I am one of the good guys, and that I will make some woman very happy. If I am one of the good guys, then why doesn't she want me? Did she decide that she wants a bad boy? Or did she start to play for the other team? Why doesn't she love me anymore? Sorry, I am just having a bit of a rough morning. Today is her birthday, and before I left for work this morning my daughter wanted to give her the gifts, so we did that. She at least told me thank you and I got a hug. Not just a quick one like she has been giving me, but an actual hug that lasted a minute or so. I forgot how nice that feels. Now I am even more lonely. She is supposed to be moving stuff out today. She is trying to borrow a truck from someone. I told her that I didn't want any strangers in my house. Period. If I am there it is one thing, someone wandering around my house with me not there is something else entirely. And she is taking the console TV. I have hated that thing since the day we got it 10 years ago! Just because it was a console it cost more than a regular TV, so we got a smaller screen. So I need to go TV shopping either today or tomorrow. And I'll have to get something to sit it on.

It is strange this morning. I feel happy, but I also feel depressed. What is going on with me? Am I feeling good because I got a hug this morning? Am I depressed because she is leaving me? Am I happy because she says I am one of the good guys? Where does a good guy go to meet a nice girl that I can take home to mom? Do I go home to small town America and see if I can find one there? Do I hang out at the beach and become a bitter, lonely old man?

I guess I better quit. I keep asking questions and I don't know if there are any answers. Tell someone how much they mean to you and make a nice day.

Lease

Well she signs a lease for an apartment today. She says she is going to start moving tomorrow. Which also happens to be her birthday. I don't know how I feel about it. I will be happy that I don't have to get hurt by her coming and going, but I will be sad that I have failed in that aspect of my life. I went to the legal office yesterday to try to figure out how much child support I should pay. The lawyer I got opened my eyes some and gave me some information I didn't know. I assumed that since we were married for more than 10 years she would get half of my retirement. Turns out she would only get a little over a quarter. Which is still more than she deserves. As far as the child support goes, if we go with shared custody which we are trying to do, and I don't agree to a dollar amount each month the judge will look at how much time our daughter will spend with each of us and it looks like I would only have to pay half of what the state says the full amount should be. That is if he even awards any child support at all because we would be doing shared custody. Which is 50/50. Do I want to be an asshole? No. Am I tired of being used? Yes. I get the feeling that she will drag her feet as much as possible on filing for divorce, because she knows that the amount of money she will get from me will drop drastically. I have to support her to some degree still because the military says I will support my dependents. I don't know what I will do in a house by myself. It isn't even worth cooking for one person. The nephew is going to stay with me, but he is hardly ever home. He is still young enough that he can go out and party all night. Funny story about him. The other day he was eating lunch at Wendy's before he went to class, and these two hot chicks come in. When he was finished he started out the door and they came up and asked if he could give them a ride back to school. He said sure, thinking that they were FIT students also. When they were in the car and he was heading toward school he asked what they were majoring in at FIT. They then informed him that they didn't go to FIT, they went to Melbourne High School. Needless to say when they wanted his number so they could call him to go party he didn't give it to them and tried to get them out of his car as fast as possible. We got a good laugh about that. So now he only talks to women in bars that he knows has a doorman checking ID's.

Why is it that we can have people all around us, but yet feel so lonely? Any females want to come visit for a little while? Make a nice day.

Sad and Grumpy

Last night before I left for school, my wife told me she might be late. Thats kind of like, "I might be going to jail." Whatever. School last night was pretty good. The instructor put off Thursdays quiz till next Tuesday. It will be the last quiz and if I do well enough on it I won't have to take the final. The girl that sits next to me in class asked me what I was taking next semester, but since the school isn't offering speech I am not taking anything. So I ended up telling her that I wasn't taking anything because I was going to deal with my divorce. Up until then I haven't told hardly anyone that I am having marital problems. I guess I do a good job hiding it, because the few people I have told have been stunned. Its always a wet blanket. So I went home. I ended up doing a load of laundry, because the hamper was full and my daughter needed some clothes for today, I finished loading the dishwasher with the dirty dishes my wife left in the sink. Not just a couple, but a full sink. Then I had to wash the non-dishwasher safe ones and start the dishwasher. I also made my daughters lunch, because, big surprise here, my wife didn't do it. By then it was time to put my daughter to bed. After I finished getting her in bed, I checked my email, and folded the clothes that I had washed. I left them on the couch for my wife to put away, and then went to bed. I didn't put the blanket and her pillow out on the couch, because I forgot. So I guess its a good thing that she didn't come home until quarter of 6. I know this because she came in the bedroom to get the blanket and pillow after I heard her close her car door and try to sneak in the back door. She failed to get her pajamas though. Too bad. I got up and got my coffee then went back to the bedroom. I watched tv while drinking my coffee. When I started getting ready for work I locked the bedroom door. Call me petty, but I wanted some privacy. When I was getting dressed she tried to come in, but it was still locked. I made her wait until I was dressed then let her in. She then had the nerve to ask me if I wanted to brush my teeth before she got in the bathroom. I told her I didn't care, but I would be brushing my teeth and finishing up. So needless to say I am still feeling hurt this morning so therefore I am grumpy as well as sad. Make a nice day.