Crap

Been a long time since I had anything I felt I needed to put in writing. Mud turned 17 earlier this year. We bought a car for her to drive, and she had a job over the summer that she enjoyed. Found out a week before school started that she had gotten into drugs with a friend from work. Not just marijuana. She was doing acid. She also had a male friend that is too old for her that she was hiding from me. If I could find the pedophile I would have the police talk to him. We took the car away, her phone was suspended, her laptop was blocked from the internet unless she was with one of us. She decided that she couldn't live like that because she wanted to do drugs with her friends. "Since there is nothing wrong with drugs, just the government trying to control everything we do."

She ended up hitting Gorgeous. I put her in the car and drove about halfway to her mother's before Gorgeous called me and begged me to bring her home. Mud and I talked for about an hour and a half before she decided she wanted to go home instead of her mothers. Three days later she talked to her mother and her mother told me she was coming to get her that Friday.

Maybe it is for the best that she moves away from this area and get away from the bad influences. I miss her a great deal though. I feel like I have failed to protect her and raise her right. I know Gorgeous is feeling hurt as well since Mud doesn't answer us and won't call us.

I miss my little girl.