Monday, January 30, 2006

Astrology Again

I saw this on Lil Bit's blog so I figured I would do it and see if it is close or not.





Rising Sign is in 17 Degrees Aries
You are a free spirit and you must be first at everything you do. Very energetic, self-assertive and active, things must be done your way. Even though you may feel calm and serene on the inside, you certainly do not act that way. You want to do everything full-tilt, 100 miles per hour! A great competitor, but a poor cooperator -- you must learn how to lose more gracefully. Very self-confident, ambitious and passionate, you radiate positive energy. You are blunt and direct, but at times unfeeling and tactless, especially if anyone offers you any resistance. You fight for your beliefs, but your tendency to act first and think later often causes you much grief.

Sun is in 18 Degrees Capricorn.
Extremely serious and mature, you are capable of accepting responsibilities and do so willingly. Others expect you to be dutiful as a matter of course. You tend to get angry when people get rewards after not having worked anywhere near as hard as you. You are goal-oriented and an achiever by nature -- you're a hard worker and are justifiably proud of the tangible results of your efforts. You tend to have "tunnel-vision" -- this allows you to block out extraneous matters that might distract others and to concentrate totally on the matter at hand. As such, you are the ideal one to manage or administrate any ongoing project and to be practical and efficient at it. You are not a fast worker, but you are quite thorough. You are known for being totally persistent, tenacious and tireless in reaching your goals.

Moon is in 00 Degrees Aquarius.
Very freedom-oriented, you must always be able to do what you wish, no matter what. You become stubborn and recalcitrant when others try to force you into a mold. You are a true democrat -- you are not a follower, but you enjoy being with those who are like-minded. You appreciate emotional self-control -- you practice it yourself and you look for it in others. You solve problems, including emotional ones, with your brains and intellect, not your feelings. Try to be tolerant of those who have powerful and obvious emotional responses -- not everyone is as objective, cool, dispassionate and detached as you are.

Mercury is in 28 Degrees Capricorn.
You are a careful thinker, very cautious and conservative. You are quite skillful at organizing, directing and planning activities. Practical and useful things interest you -- you are not attracted to abstract thoughts or ideas. With your tendency to be highly focused and very goal-oriented, you have a good head for business. But beware of a tendency to be narrow-minded and dogmatic. Your sense of humor tends toward being earthy and slapstick crude.

Venus is in 14 Degrees Capricorn.
You tend to keep your feelings under control -- emotions are only released in serious or important situations. You are distrustful of others whose behavior could be judged excessive or immoderate. As such, you prefer to relate only to those who are older than you or to those whose position is such that respect and duty are more important for both of you than passion or emotional response. Be careful, however, of relationships that are merely based on practicality or utility or you will ultimately be lonely.

Mars is in 18 Degrees Pisces.
Very sensitive and vulnerable, it is difficult for you to assert yourself. At times, you feel quite tired and you will require a lot of sleep in order to maintain your health and your strength. You are at your best when you act without your ego being important. You can be very unselfish and considerate of the needs of others. You get the most satisfaction by giving to others when you expect nothing in return. Beware of a tendency to want always to work behind the scenes or to become overly deceptive by doing things behind others' backs.

Jupiter is in 03 Degrees Scorpio.
You love to dig deep beneath surface appearances in order to find out what is really happening. A persistent researcher, you are very interested in the psychology of any situation. You tend to become overwhelmed by the complexity of what you uncover, however, and that makes you a bit gun-shy about explaining things to others. But you must learn to try to communicate as best you can because what you know is really very valuable to others.

Saturn is in 02 Degrees Taurus.
Complete freedom of choice makes you ill at ease. You must have a firm, ordered, secure foundation in your life in order to feel comfortable. You do not adapt easily and tend to fear the new and untried. You constantly fear that you do not have enough (love, property, material things, etc.) and this makes you tend toward being selfish, withdrawn and stingy. If you try to surround yourself with supportive people in your environment, you will become more emotionally self-supporting.

Uranus is in 08 Degrees Libra.
You, as well as your entire peer group, have a very free, unstable and unconventional approach to relationships and emotional commitments. You will be attracted to experiments in marriage and shared lifestyles. Personal freedom is more important to you than entangling emotional bonds. In the realm of art and aesthetics, you are attracted to the bizarre, shocking and unusual.

Neptune is in 00 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global village."

Pluto is in 27 Degrees Virgo.
For your entire generation, this will be a time when profound changes in society's attitude toward work, duty and responsibility will be initiated. Radical changes in attitudes toward personal health and general nutrition will be promulgated and gain wide acceptance and practice.

N. Node is in 13 Degrees Pisces.
You're attracted to others who need your assistance. You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!



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Work

Ohh hell Mondays suck! I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. I finally crawled out at 0640 and went to get my coffee. I don't like having to go downstairs to get coffee and then go back upstairs to get ready for work. To much of a chance for spillage on the new carpet. I took my daughter to school and halfway there she tells me she didn't brush her teeth. Great. Turn around and go back so she can brush them.

I finally get to work and realize that I really don't want to be here. I damn sure don't feel like being here the rest of the week. Hmm, how can I get out of work... Any ideas?

Don't have much else to post. I cleaned and straightened and rearranged all day yesterday. I need to get some new pots to transplant some plants and see if they will survive.

I better get to work. Make a nice day.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Moving

Moving SUCKS!!! Everything got moved over to the new house and it is out of boxes, but most of it is still sitting around on the table, chairs, counter, floor. You name it, crap is stacked on it!! I haven't even gotten around to setting up my computer. I did the servers and my daughter's computer, but not mine yet. I have cables all over the floor for mine. Speakers, webcam, microphone, flat screen. Yuck. I hate just walking in there. It makes me feel overwhelmed. My bedroom isn't much better. My daughters room is mostly sorted out. Nephew took care of his room. Kitchen, well everything is in a cabinet. Just not the right cabinet. The damn fridge! Ugh. I have to pull everything out and rearrange the shelves into something workable. I am dreading that one. I hate playing with shelves in the fridge. Time to get to work I suppose. Make a nice day!

Monday, January 23, 2006

Stole it

Found this on Jessica's blog.

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

story

I guess I should explain a little about what got me on the last post.

Many years ago, probably 14 years or so, the job I was in caused me to have to travel with a group of guys quite a bit. Invariably we all would go out to eat. One of favorite things to do at the restaurant (if the waitress was cute, sexy, hot, etc...) was everyone in the group would ante up $20 to the middle of the table and put in what they thought. Was she wearing black, white, green, blue, red, etc panties. Sometimes it was whether or not they would be wearing a thong, grannies, boy shorts. You get the general idea I assume.

When you have 15 guys at a table with all of them putting in $20, thats a good bit of money, if memory serves correct that is $300. Once everyone had their bet in and it was recorded we would elect a spokesman for the group to explain to the waitress what this was all about. The rule was, whoever guessed correctly won the pot and would split it with the waitress if she were willing to prove it. If no one guessed correctly and the waitress proved it then she won the whole pot. We had a lot of fun with that game. We saw alot of different panties, and even one commando! Damn that woman was hot. Up in Syracuse, NY. And none ever refused to prove it either.

Anyway, any of you waitresses remember ever serving us? :)

Question for the Ladies

Ladies, does it bother you to know that men look at you and wonder what you have on underneath? Do you care if your bra strap shows or your thong rides up above the top of your pants? Do you do it on purpose? If so, are you trying to attract attention?

How many of you go commando? How often? Do you prefer men in boxers, briefs, or commando?

How many of you want a man to comment on what color panties you are showing?

I'm desperate and twisted. Help! :))

New Day

Well today is a new day. The inspection here at work has started. Wheeee!!

Yesterday I spent a couple of hours with my wife and we made some small talk. Then we walked through the new house I am getting. I am moving on Wednesday btw, just in case anyone wants to come watch the movers and drink with me. My wife is going to help situate the new house. I have decided to put the cat box upstairs and feed her downstairs. That way she gets some exercise!

The bedrooms seem very small in the new house though. I'm not sure I can get all of my bedroom suite into the master bedroom. The master bathroom is way too big though. It has a lot of wasted space in the middle. It feels like I should be ballroom dancing in it.

All the bedrooms have ceiling fans. I felt claustrophobic in them though. I hope that passes.

The kitchen is very nice. It has black granite counters. A LOT of countertop! It also has a lot of cabinet space. Built in microwave over the very nice gas stove. It is actually a very nice house. I hope I can manage to stay in it for awhile.

I better get to work, or at least pretend to while I read blogs. Make a nice day!

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Update

Well yesterday morning when my wife came to pick up our daughter for school, I refused to talk to her and left almost as soon as she got here. Then after lunch she called me at work and wanted to talk. She told me that she tried to catch me at lunch but she missed me. Thats bullshit. She knows what time I take lunch, hell she had been avoiding me during lunch for almost a year! So she tells me she wants to talk, and I informed her that I was busy and didn't want to talk to her. Then I hung up. Later last night she called the house, but I wasn't here to answer the phone so she called my cell, and again wanted to talk. I told her that I wasn't about to talk to her over the phone. Then I hung up on her again. I didn't want to talk while I was in the bookstore. Hell I don't want to talk to her today either, but I am going to have to see her when she brings our daughter over. I know she will want to talk then. I wonder if I can ignore her long enough for her to go away.

Something I noticed btw, is that instead of telling our daughter to "show daddy, tell daddy, etc." it is now, tell your dad, show your father. What the hell is that about? Is that another way of distancing herself from me? Something else to hurt me with?

Damn, I feel like this blog of mine is turning into a "whiny, bitch session gone long" yuck. I hate feeling this way.

BTW, Lurkers. Navy person. The person in Orlando who is on dialup. Leave a comment once in awhile. Won't kill you. Promise.

I'm done for now, make a nice day.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Getting my teeth kicked in again

I had a decent day going until about 10 this morning. Thats when my wife called me and asked if I could watch our daughter for a week while she goes out of town. HUH!?!?! Where the hell are you going I asked her. Colorado. What is she going to Colorado for? Vacation. How the hell can she afford to go to Colorado when she has no job, and can't even afford to give our daughter money for school lunches? To say I was hurt would be the understatement of the year. She tells me her "friend" (a new one btw) is going to take her, because the person who was supposed to go couldn't. I asked her how long she had been fucking this guy. She told me "its not like that" BULLSHIT!!! He's a guy! If he is taking her to Vail, Colorado at the height of the ski season, it is going to cost at least $5000! And he's not getting some? Thats a load of shit! I told her that he is planning on getting some of it, but she still said "it's not like that" She is 43 years old. How can she be that naive?

So I came home from work and she is here to drop our daughter off. She has my digital camera and download cable in hand and says she is borrowing this. What the hell for? I was still so pissed off at her that I just told her to get out and do whatever the hell she wants to do. Then me being the mature adult I am, I went in to my bedroom and slammed the door and cried. Unfortunately I know my daughter heard that.

I did tell her today to file for divorce because the gravy train is over. She told me she hadn't filed already because she want s me to get the new house, but when the divorce is final, if I don't have custody of our daughter I have to get out, so I will lose the new house. She seems to think that rotating custody will solve that. I don't. I see me having to move again within 6 months. Maybe something will happen to her while she is "on vacation" and it will leave my daughter to me. Why does that make me feel like an evil person?

Why does she have to tear my heart apart time after time? Why do I keep letting her?

Make a nice day.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Trust

Trust is a funny thing. It isn't something that is freely given, but earned over time. One small misdeed can cause you to lose trust of someone completely. After that it is damn near impossible to trust that person again. As much as we want to trust them, it just won't happen. Why do I say this? I am coming to the realization that I will never trust my wife again. Since I can't trust her, why should I desire to have a relationship with her? How will this affect the way I trust other women in the future? Where is the great sage to answer all my questions when I need them answered. Make a nice day.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Time

I hear people say that time heals all wounds. My question is, how much time does it take to heal all wounds?

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Picture

I took this picture last night on the way home from dinner. We stopped at the beach just so I could take it. It is kind of dark but I don't have the software to lighten it yet. Hehe!

Loneliness

I think the hardest thing I am dealing with now is the sense of loneliness. I have my daughter here about every other night and most of the weekends, but it doesn't help with the loneliness. I have a friend I talk to on IM and the phone frequently, but she is over a 1000 miles away. When I wake up in the middle of the night in my bed all alone, that's when it is the worst. At that point in time I want to hold someone and feel loved and wanted. What I have now is a pillow, loneliness, and regrets. Tell your lover how much you love and appreciate them. Make a nice day.

Friday, January 13, 2006

Some people suck

I have noticed that several people have had to change their blog or it just disappeared recently. I hate to see that. Lilith disappeared and then Candi went MIA. Now Gigi is going to go away. There have been others that go away but then come back. Sometimes the reason is personal, other times it is because of outside influences. Those outside influences are assholes sometimes. Why do some people feel the need to hurt others? Why can't we all just live and let live? Make a nice day.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Slacker

I'm such a damn slacker. I haven't done an HNT in a couple weeks and I feel like I have missed out on some opportunities to show my nekkidness. I hope to correct this next week. I know I haven't even really had a chance to surf HNT's so I know for a fact I have missed out. I will be trying to catch up though. Now I should get back to pretending to do work.

Inspections

This morning we had a uniform inspection. Full Service Dress Blues. It sucked. Standing at attention then parade rest, then attention, then parade rest, then attention. What a bunch of fun. We were supposed to form up at 0700. I got here at 0645 and started to put my jacket and tie on. Couldn't find my tie. Evidently I had taken it out of my uniform bag that it is normally in. $*&*&$%^%^. So I had to run back home to get it and hopefully make it back in time to fall in unnoticed. Luckily by the time I got back they hadn't formed up yet. Lots of fun. So far that has been my morning. Make a nice day.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Bad Feelings

I woke up this morning with a bad feeling and don't know why. When my wife came over to get my daughter for school I hugged her and started crying and don't know why. What the hell is going on with me?!? What a shitty way to start a day. Anyway, I hope you all make a nice day. Tell your pookie how much you love them, stop by the florist and buy a rose or two for them.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Dreams

Sometimes dreams can leave you wishing you hadn't gone to sleep. I had a dream last night about a friend of mine who is in Iraq. In this dream she was in some kind of a caravan of vehicles and the inevitable happened. It was a horrible dream. I haven't talked to her since the end of September when I sent her a birthday card and she informed me of where she was heading. So having a dream about her and that happening has me bothered. I sent her an email and asked her to avoid anything that resembled a caravan of vehicles. I know that in the military we do what we have to do when we are told to, but I hope she can avoid it. I also hope that I am just a paranoid freak and nothing happens. I can only hope.

Sorry for no paragraphs today. Make a nice day.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Touch

I have to admit that I have been feeling very lonely lately. Over New Years my wife gave me several hugs and they made me feel good. Just the touch of another human being felt nice. Yesterday I was feeling very lonely and unwanted and hoped that I would get a hug from her. I didn't. Even when I asked for one she was busy watching a TV show, so I just left after telling my daughter goodnight. I got a hug from my daughter, but it isn't the same as a hug from an adult female.

It seems like every morning I wake up, cold and lonely and can't really see a good reason to get out of bed except that I am in the military and I have to go to work, or I need to get my daughter ready for school.

All I really wanted for my birthday was for her to hug me and hold me and tell me it would be ok. Even if it was a lie.

Make a nice day.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Birthday

Well I got older today. 36. When I was a teenager, I thought I would be dead by now. Funny how your life can change and how quickly nothing is the same.

I haven't been posting lately because of work, and also I am studying to test for Master Sergeant in a couple of months. I really need to make rank so I can afford to pay bills. Hehe. Maybe I should quit buying crap. The hell with that. I decided to get me a new cell phone so I bought a Black RAZR. :D

Alright, I need to get back to doing stuff. Make a nice day!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

More work

Well I had to come back to work today. I really didn't want to, but I did anyway. I took my time dragging my ass out of bed and was late to work by a few minutes. Fuck em. When I got here I was informed that due to an upcoming inspection we would be working till 6 every night. Well fuck you very much! What a lovely day so far. And it is dragging so horribly slow! I wonder if a car accident would get me out of work for a few weeks. Ahh too much pain involved with that.

I have a question for the ladies who read my blog. If you go over to a bachelors house, when you use the bathroom, do you put the seat back up? or do you leave it down? Why do men get thought less of if they fail to put the seat down at a womans house? Are women so dependent on men to put the seat down? Do you not look first? Sorry that double standard just irritates me.

Finally time for lunch. Make a nice day.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Overdue

I went on vacation for Christmas. Anybody figure that one out? I took my daughter and went to my Mother-in-laws. Yep. Go figure. It was a good time overall, but since my wife hasn't told her family anything other than we are separated and are divorcing they of course want to ask me whats going on and why is she acting so strange. I just couldn't bear the shame of telling them that she cheated on me. Yes I know it isn't any shame on me for her actions, but thats just how I feel. Anyway.

I got to meet my step-daughters boyfriend. He seems nice enough, but I didn't get a chance to take him out in the woods and interrogate him. Maybe next time I go up there. Bring a 9mm and see if he wants to go to the range. Hehehe...

My niece told me something that my step-daughter told her. I can't quote it exactly but, it did bring me to tears. Basically it was that she had two fathers, but only one true Dad. She didn't know this until she went to her fathers house to live with him two years ago and figured out that I was the only true Dad she had. It brought me to tears just hearing that she loved me like that. She did give me a lot of hugs when I got there and was happy to see me, but when I heard that she had told her cousin that, well I did have to leave the room. I didn't let her know that her cousin told me. But I was happy.

I hated to leave and come back to this house, but I need to get groceries and a haircut, and take the cat to the vet, again.

I had a huge long post typed up, but when I read it before posting I decided that I didn't want to put it all out there so I have shortened it a lot. I still rambled some though.

I didn't want to post from my MIL's computer because she is the curious type who wants to see where the grandkids are going on her computer and I don't want her reading my blog. I just don't want to deal with that hassle. She wouldn't be upset with me, but it would still upset her. She gave me her old computer and flat screen so I can update my daughters computer. Nice. A nine year old who has a flat screen monitor.

I have been trying to keep up on everyones blogs that I read, but there were a few that I didn't dare to go to on my MIL's computer. Much as I love going to see them it would be worse than going to it at work if she found it!!

Time to post this. Tell your snookie that you love them and let them feel it also. Make a nice day.