Rejected Color

I found this on Blondage's blog. This is what rejected color I am.

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What Rejected Crayon Are You?

One Year

I had intended to post something yesterday since it was my one year blogiversary. I got lazy though and surfed HNT's!

It doesn't seem like it has been a year since I started writing in this. I have met some amzing people who have been very supportive and helpful. I am grateful to them. I have seen pictures on HNT that are very emotionally evoking, and others that are down right hot! I have also read stories that are almost identical to mine.

The one thing about the circle of friends that I have acquired on blogger, we are all dealing with our own demons and we try to help each other.

If I could I would give a dozen roses to each and everyone of you. I hope you all have a Merry Christmas or a Happy Hannukah, or the any others that are celebrated that I don't know about.

Hold your snookie close and tell them you love them. Make a nice day.



P.S. Jessica, how are my paragraphs? I did them just for you! :)

Unofficially HNT. Since it got cancelled!

How many HNT's have I done already? I have no idea. I need to go find them and start numbering them. So I was trying to decide if I wanted to post this one or not. It's not full frontal at least. Should I post something else I kept asking myself. I had a long discussion with myself about whether or not I had the cajones to post this. I still don't know if it is a good idea or not, but I am doing it.



Why am I doing this you ask? Well click on the lady in lingerie beneath the weather pixie and see for yourself what the main man Osbasso says about it. Then get some liquid courage if needed and start posting!

Thoughts

I was reading Tish's blog a few minutes ago and it made me think. She talked about New Years and that she wouldn't be having someone to kiss at midnight yet again. I realized that I won't have anyone to kiss then either. After having someone with me for 13 years and now nothing. Maybe I can find a woman of easy virtue in FWB since that is where I will be next week. I should look up Christy and Kevin and see what their plans are. My in-laws probably have everything planned out for my daughter already so getting someone to watch her shouldn't be much of a problem. I guess I will see. Make a nice day.

Tuesday

Not much happening here the past couple of days. My wife brought my daughter over last night so that she could go do some Christmas shopping for her. She said she would be back by 8 pm. Not a problem, my daughter and I would just hang out. She ended up sitting on my lap as we went through one of those sites that removes people from the movie and you have to name what movie the picture came from. We didn't do too well on it though. I got her in the tub and left her there for a little while. About 7:45 I got her out so that she would be ready to leave when my wife got there. Right about then I got a phone call from her. She wouldn't be able to make it by 8 because she was having problems finding stuff. Hmmm, I wonder why. At almost 9 I was trying to decide if I wanted to put her to bed until my wife got there or not. At that time my wife showed up. And wanted to talk to me about what she had bought and what needed to be bought still. Whee. I still love her even after all the pain she has caused me, and I don't see us ever getting back together. At least not without a shitload of therapy, and a hot redhead or two for me! I just wish I had it in my heart to get a mean lawyer and file for divorce and custody of my daughter and force her to pay child support, even though she has no job. Maybe then I would feel like it was ok to actually start dating. Make a nice day.

Baby Mama Drama II

This morning I called my wife about 1030 and told her to be ready to go at 1100 cause we were going shopping. Actually I told this to her voicemail cause she didn't answer. At 1055 she called back and said she didn't want to go, etc ,etc. I asked her why, and she just told me that she didn't feel like going. I told her that wasn't good enough. After a few more minutes I relented and told her to be ready to go to dinner later on. Then got off the phone. I took my daughter to the mall and went shopping for Christmas. I am going to hate my mailman when the credit card bill comes. My daughter has no concept of money at all. We got home around 2 and started wrapping presents. My wife called about 2:15 and asked if she could come over. I told her that of course she could how long till she would be here. 15 minutes. So we finish wrapping everything and sit down and watch tv. My wife makes it here at 3:30. Wow, she didn't say 15 minutes of football time! First thing she did was eat a slice of Pumpkin Pie. I did mention previously that my pie turned out very good right? :) So after that she sat and watched tv with us for 30 minutes or so. Then she asked if she could use my bathroom. I assumed that she meant she wanted to talk to me in private, so I gave her a few minutes then went back to my bedroom and asked her what was up. She looked at me and started crying. I can't stand to see her cry. I know she has put me through alot of pain, but I do still love her. A great deal. So when she started crying I shut the door and held her and let her cry. She finally slowed down enough and I got her to sit down and talk to me. She repeated what she had said last night about making bad decisions in her life. I kept my mouth shut and waited, finally she started talking and told me that she had indeed been seeing someone else and he had been giving her money for food and bills. This hurt me, but deep down I already knew it. The reason she hadn't gotten a job was because he didn't want her to work. Lovely, another man telling my wife what to do. It's a good thing I don't know who it is, because I have two handguns and a shitload of ammunition! And I do know how to use them. As she kept talking she basically told me that he was seeing other people besides her. Karma can be such a bitch can't it? Part of me wanted to jump for joy and say I told you so!! but the other part of me wanted to hold her and tell her I was sorry. The second part won. I told her I was sorry this happened to her because I knew how it felt. She caught what I said and apologized for all the pain and suffering she caused me. I asked her how she found out he was seeing someone else, but again all she would say was that it wasn't important. She said she didn't want to see him anymore, but she needed him to help her financially at least until she got a job and started working. I told her that I would make sure she would never go hungry, and I would help her if I could. I told her she could come home if she wanted too. SHe just looked me in the eye and started crying and said she couldn't. I told her the only thing stopping her from coming home is herself. There was more along those lines and I asked her if she was going to eat dinner with us, but declined saying she wasn't able to hold it together long enough to make it through dinner. I tried to get her to promise she would eat dinner with us on Sunday, but she wouldn't commit to it. She was having a hard time not crying. When she was finally dry eyed enough she took her leave and gave our daughter a hug and a kiss and drove off. My daughter and nephew and I went to dinner at the "good" chinese buffet that my daughter likes and had a good time. There was a lady and her teenage daughter at the table next to us and I caught a bit of their conversation of put it in your mouth and swallow. WTF?! Hell yeah Mom!! :) Oh wait she was talking about food. OK so she told her to swallow it before she would tell her what it was. I didn't hear what it was but the daughter got up and ran to the bathroom! Hahaha! My curiosity got the better of me so I asked the mom (she was a MILF btw) what was up with her daughter. She told me the conversation and then told me that it was a Frog Leg that her daughter had eaten! I thought that was hilarious!! So we laughed a minute then my daughter and nephew came back from the buffet. I related the conversation to him and he said, Where's the Frog Legs? and went to find them. After that it was just the nightly routine. I tried to call my wife and find out if she was ok, but all I got was voicemail. So I will go to bed tonight and wonder if she is ok or not. I have my suspicions of how she knows he was seeing other people, but I don't want to voice them now. I always think the worst. Make a nice day.

Baby Mama Drama

Well another post in the life sucks arena. Had a pretty good day today, got my daughter out of school for a Christmas lunch at work. She has been dying to go to one ever since we got here. Afterwards we came home around 1230. She watched some tv and played board games with the nephew. Around 3 her mama came to get her. She was only 30 minutes late. My wife then ate a piece of the Pumpkin Pie that I made yesterday and watched our daughters school thing that I videotaped yesterday. She was too busy doing something to attend. After that was over, they left. It was around 4. I kissed my daughter and hugged her before she left. I finally ate some dinner and about 7:15 the doorbell rings. It is my wife and my daughter. Surprise. I was actually on the phone with her sister and when my wife came in she asked to talk to me. I handed the phone to my daughter and followed my wife to the bedroom. She asked me if I could watch our daughter tonight, because she was having some drama in her life and didn't want our daughter involved. Of course I said I would take our daughter, that wasn't a problem. I looked her in the eye and asked her what was wrong. She started crying and said that she couldn't stop making bad decisions. I asked if she was in danger or needed somewhere to go, but she said she wasn't in danger. She let me hold her for about 10 minutes while she cried. I told her that if she needed somewhere to go, or someone to talk to she knew where to find me. She left a little after that. I am worried about her. The one thing that she kept saying was that she kept making bad decisions. The way she was talking made me think that she may be planning on taking too many sleeping pills before she goes to bed tonight. I don't think she would, but evidently I don't know her as well as I thought I did. So later on before my daughter went to bed I had her call her mama to tell her goodnight. She got voicemail. About 8:55 my wife called back and talked to our daughter to tell her goodnight, then she wanted to talk to me. Unusual. So she talked to me, and sounded like she had been crying some more. I again told her that if she wanted to talk to me or to someone that she knew where I was. I know I shouldn't still love her after the shit she has put me through, but I do still love her very much. Enough to forgive her. I asked her to meet us for breakfast in the morning but she declined and said she wanted to sleep in for a change. I guess I will call her in the morning and see if she changes her mind. Sorry about rambling on, but I needed to get this one off my chest and out of my head before I let it get to me. Tell your snookie that you love them and give them a kiss that lets them know that it is true. Make a nice day.

HNT

Today for HNT I was thinking about posting my derriere, but just can't quite work up the courage to do that. Instead you get two pictures! The first one is me showing some hand again rubbing the belly of my live in pussy. I mean kitty! Yeah. ok.

The second one is her posing for the centerfold of the new monthly publication "Tomcat" She's good isn't she folks? Hehehe. If you want to join in the fun of HNT just click on the pretty lady in lingerie over on the right side and visit Osbasso. Make a nice day!

Today

Well so far today I haven't needed to tell anyone to fuck off. I have been good. Promise. At lunch I went to Panera Bread Company with my Capt. He drives a bright yellow 2004 Corvette. Nice. Lots of power, but very low to the ground. That and they are cop magnets! Lunch was ok. I've had better sandwiches. Other than that it appears as though this will be a slow day. Thats the way I like it!

Tacogirl has restarted her blog as well, so go give her a shout and welcome her back.

Make a nice day!

Time to Vent

Well I have been a good boy so far today. I came very close to telling more than a few people to fuck off. I didn't though. I damn sure wanted to. I'll tell them here. FUCK OFF!!!! Gutless fucking pukes! Grow a set for once in your damn life!

I feel better now. I guess I should do that more often. At least if I do it here I won't spend so much time on the commanders carpet. You can go on back to your life now.

Make a nice day.

Stole this!

Hehehe. I stole this from Wild Visions, another incredibly hot redhead!

Five Kinda Weird Habits

Jessica tagged me…

1. I wake up before my alarm clock almost every morning.
2. I like looking at pictures of naked women, but feel that strip clubs are demeaning.
3. I can't stand a messy kitchen so I clean it almost constantly, but could care less about the rest of the house.
4. I love roses. I am strictly heterosexual male, but I love they way they look and smell.
5. I have to have background noise on. Whether it is the tv or a radio I have to have sound on.

What are five of your sorta weird habits?

You're it Blondie, Christy, and Tish at The Kat House. Now I just have to figure out how to get all 3 of them together and naked at the same time! I would tag Tacogirl as well, but she has deleted her blog. I hope she continues to stop by and comment, Lord knows I need a hot redhead who only wears thongs to leave comments on my blog!!

HNT

Hey folks, sorry I haven't posted a whole lot recently. All I can say is, sometimes work happens. I am posting my back today for HNT. You can just see the bottom of my tattoo on my back. Who can figure out what it is?

Now if you don't know what HNT is, you need to go visit Osbasso. Click on the pretty pink lady in lingerie on the right side of the page to get there. Make a nice day.

Crap

I haven't been able to get to blogger from work lately so it is putting a big crimp in my blogging! I know I have put off blogging some things because I just can't seem to get them situated in my head well enough to write them coherently. I'm not ignoring my blog, just having some problems. Yes I know I am fucked up. I know that the one woman in this world that I truly love, no longer loves me. That tears me up. Why? Because if I had paid attention to the little things I would not have lost her. Then again, if I changed myself to be what she thought she wanted me to be, would she again decide that she didn't want me? I think I need a shrink. I know I need to get the divorce finalized, but then how will she survive? Why do I even care what happens to her? How will it affect my daughter? How will it affect me? How do I go on and make something of myself? I have 3 years until I can retire from the military, then I have to get another job. Do I stay where she is if I don't get my daughter? I actually like the area that I am stationed at right now. The Space Coast of Florida is very nice and has some interesting things to do. You just have to be able to get a job that can pay you enough to live here. The old people from up north have driven the cost of living way up! Since this was a post I started the other day I suppose I need to go ahead and post it. Kiss your special someone and tell them you love them. Remember that you can choose to have a nice day or to make a nice day. I choose to try to Make a nice day!

Funky

Blogger has been funky for a couple of days for me, so I don't know if I can even get this posted but I am giving it a shot.

Your Fortune Is

Never have sex with a stranger unless you are stranger than them.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

Saturday

Well so far today has been pretty nice. My friend who I converse with has put out some pretty good hints on her blog. I had such a bad headache last night that when I went to bed I took two Tylenol PM. SHe called me shortly after that and I was crap for conversation. I think I almost fell asleep on her. I know I didn't wake up until 8 am which is very unusual for me. Then I got up and made some cinnamon pancakes. Course my daughter didn't want any! Picky brat! After all that we went and ran some errands and then went grocery shopping. When we got back my wife called and informed me of a thing that Disney was doing at the Youth Center. So I took my daughter up there and we had hotdogs, chips, koolaid for lunch. Then we decorated Ginger bread Mickeys, and got to see Mickey, Minnie, Goofy, Pluto, Chip and Dale, Peter Pan and Wendy, and Belle. Then they had a little show and a raffle at the end. We ended up winning a DVD and a CD package. The Santa Clause 2 and Disney Christmas Jingles. My daughter was so excited she started to take off without the ticket! Well thats all so far today. I guess I will go see what my daughter is up to because it got real quiet. Make a nice day!

HNT

Well this has to be a fast one this morning. It is 0545 and I am going to be late for work. So the short of it is, click on the pink lingerie lady on the right and visit Osbasso for the rules and let him know if you are playing. As I stated in my last post, this picture is courtesy of a friend who photochopped it for me. Thank You!!