Rainy day

It is kind of dark and gloomy today. I am trying to be upbeat and happy, but when I get such negative feedback from my wife it is hard to do sometimes. I realize that change cannot happen overnight, but I would still like to have some positive feedback. Does it make me "high maintenance" if I want a hug and a kiss once in a while? What about if I just want some affection? I know our sex life is non-existent and I want some attention, but there is no way that I will ever force or coerce my wife into it. So why does it seem that I am unhappy about my marraige? Is it because of self imposed restrictions? I am starting to ramble so I will go.