Dazed and Confused

So far today I am still feeling dazed and confused. I just don't know what to do or where to go. I know that when she does leave me I will be shattered. Even though I know it is coming. How pathetic is that? My heart hurts now. I need to find a good counselor to go talk to. Or a prostitute. I guess you could say that they are they same thing. They both take money from you and you learn about how you get screwed.